「医院革命」前情回顾 Previously on "New Amsterdam"...
我应该告诉你 You should know
不管在哪儿你都很让人讨厌 that I have always found you to be insufferable.
而我见过80岁的中风患者 And I've seen 80-year-old stroke victims
运动能力恢复得都比你快 improve their range of motion faster than you.
他们要求投票决定是否终止富尔顿的合同 The board's calling a vote to terminate Fulton's contract.
结束了 我要让位了 It's done. I'm out.
麦克斯 脑部出血 Max. There was a brain bleed.
哈特曼在给乔治娅做手术 Georgia's in surgery with Hartman.
我们继续做梦吧 Let's keep dreaming.
我也想 I'd love to.
你可以请病假 You could call in sick.
我们可以一整天都待在床上 We could stay in bed all day.
我记得那些日子 I remember those days.
我们太调皮了 We were so bad.
那感觉太好了 It was so good.
我以为那样的日子会很多 I thought we'd have more of those days.
我以为我们还有很多时间 I thought we'd have so much time.
如果我知道是现在这样 I would've done everything different.
肯定会做的有所不同 If I knew.
从现在开始 Start now.
在这陪着我 Stay here with me.
我得去上班 I gotta go to work.
那我跟你一起去 Maybe I'll come with you.
家里好寂寞 It gets so lonely.
♪ All your love is ♪
BGM: Lost and Found by Dotan
♪ All your love is blind ♪
♪ I'll sleep until the day you're mine ♪
医 院 革 命 第二季 第七集
等等我 海伦 Excuse me. Helen, hey.
我刚给你带了一杯多奶少沫的卡布奇诺 I happened to get you a cappuccino dry.
谢了 你欠的债又少了三美元 Thanks. Another $3 knocked off your debt.
我还剩多少 How much do I have left?
为那个超级无敌贵还不能退款的打扫服务吗 For the insanely expensive non-refundable cleaning service
我大度地请去你家却被你拒绝的那个吗 that I graciously sent to your home and you rejected?
-就是那个 -大概还要112杯卡布奇诺 - That's the one. - About 112 cappuccinos more.
那如果我给你买双倍浓或三倍浓的呢 Well, what if I make it a double or a triple?
对不起 I'm sorry, okay.
你的举动非常贴心周到 It was such a thoughtful gesture.
-没错 -我很感激 - Yes, it was. - I appreciate it.
真对不起 I'm very sorry,
你能接受我的道歉吗 and will you please accept my apology?
天哪 Oh, God.
-接受了 -太好了 - Accepted. - Good.
你到底会不会告诉我 Are you ever gonna tell me
你为什么把我慷慨的礼物拱手丢弃 why you threw my wildly generous gift to the curb?
我只是现在不希望陌生人进家门 I just don't want strangers in my house right now.
♪ All your love is ♪
♪ All your love is blind ♪
她心动过速 She's tachy.
血压70/30 脉搏130 70/30, 130.
特朗布利女士 没关系 我们知道你要来 Ms. Trombley, it's okay, we've been expecting you.
我好害怕 妈妈 I'm scared, Mama.
我知道 没事的 宝贝 I know. It's okay, baby.
室间隔Q波在侧导联 Septal Q waves in the lateral leads.
听我的口令 一 二 三 On my count. One, two, three.
凯拉 我是雷诺兹医生 我会为你治疗 Kayla, I'm Dr. Reynolds. I'm gonna take care of you.
我们得带她去做手术 We gotta get her into surgery.
现在吗 什么手术 But now? What kind of surgery?
特朗布利夫人 凯拉的心脏 Mrs. Trombley, Kayla's got an overgrowth
有一块增生肌肉组织 of muscle tissue in her heart,
我们得赶紧摘除 否则她的心脏会再次停止 and we need to fix this now, or her heart could stop again.
这通常是基因性的 It's often genetic,
所以我们也要给你检查 so we should get you checked, too.
如果你需要联系任何人 家人 她父亲 If you need to contact anyone, family, her father--
不 他去世了 No, he's passed on.
好 她可以了 Okay, she's all set.
她是我的全部了 She's all I have.
有我们在 We've got her.
我们会照顾好她的 She's in good hands.
那是我的宝贝 That's my baby.
坚强点 好吗 你得坚强点 Stay strong, okay? You need to stay strong.
我非常荣幸能帮助你 It has been my honor to assist you
控制你生理上的疼痛 内森 in managing your physical issues, Nathan.
但你的情感需求 But for your emotional needs,
我觉得伊吉·弗罗姆医生是最合适的人选 I can think of no one better than Dr. Iggy Frome.
你好 感觉如何 Hi, there. How you doing?
-你肯定是内特 -医生 - You must be Nate. - Sir.
很高兴见到你 Yeah, nice to meet you.
卡普尔医生告诉我 So Dr. Kapoor tells me
你想加入我们快乐的一家人 you would like to join our merry band.
他觉得这可能是个好主意 Well, he thinks it might be a good idea.
内森曾两次驻军阿富汗 Nathan has done two tours in Afghanistan.
我想你的创伤后应激障碍支持小组 I believe your PTSD support group
对现在的他来说是绝佳的良药 can be the perfect medicine for him now.
我同意 你什么时候回来的 I agree. So when did you get back?
一年前的七月 A year ago July.
我们这有好多人在阿富汗驻军 You know, a lot of our folks were in Afghanistan.
还有伊拉克 Iraq, as well.
有一位上校第一场战争是第一次海湾战争 We have a colonel in there who began his service in the first Gulf War.
我们还有一个上尉来自第二次... We have a captain from the second--
医生 我不是很明白为什么 Sir, I'm not really clear why...
我感谢你们的努力 但是 I mean, I appreciate what you're trying to do here, but--
你不是一个人 内森 You're not alone here, Nathan.
没错 绝对不是 我们都彼此扶持 No, not by a long shot. We're all about support.
这是个安全地带 你可以与充满爱的人 It's just a safe space for you to share your truth
分享自己的真实想法 with folks who lead with love.
你管自己叫海军 You call yourself a Marine?
一切 你所说的一切 Everything, everything you're saying,
都完全背叛的领导 complete betrayal of leadership.
我的领导背叛了我 My leadership betrayed me.
一直以来我只想像我父亲那样做个海军 All I ever wanted was to be a Marine like my dad.
我是个忠诚的信徒 I was a true believer,
但我们在伊拉克是被背叛了 长官 but we were betrayed in Iraq, sir!
我们任务的目标是 The purpose of our mission--
你的职责不是去质疑任务 It wasn't your job to question the purpose.
你的职责是去完成任务 It was your job to accomplish the mission.
我来这唯一的理由 唯一的理由 The only reason, only reason I came to this crap show
是因为我妻子坚持 is 'cause my wife insisted,
但我没必要在这听着 but I don't have to stand here and listen to this
你们这些事后诸葛亮指手画脚 sad sack Monday morning quarterback.
好了 昆恩 深呼吸 Okay, Quinn, take a breath.
深呼吸 好吗 Take a deep one. Okay?
我们谈过这个 对不对 We've talked about this, haven't we?
-对 -没错 - Yeah. - Yes.
阿米莉娅和你的经历不同 Amalia has a different experience than you.
仅此而已 That's it.
但你们为同一个国家而战 But you two fought for the same country.
这是你们的共同点 That is what binds you.
真是一派胡言 That is such a load of crap.
是吗 Is it?
你不知道你在说什么 You don't know what you're talking about.
你不知道我们的经历 你不知道 You don't know our experience. You don't know.
你不知道这种疼痛 失去你的... You don't know the pain of losing a part of you...
当你的许多其他朋友永远都不... while so many of your friends never...
不 没有语言可以描述 No, there's no words.
其实有 Actually, there are.
为了找到适当的言语 And to give us those words...
我们现在要尝试些新的东西 we are gonna try something new,
同时也已经沉淀了千年的东西 and yet something that is thousands of years old.
我们要演戏 We're gonna put on a play.
伊丽莎白 抱歉让你久等了 Elizabeth, sorry to keep you.
没关系 我在跑圈呢 No problem. I was just running laps.
见见胡安·奎斯塔医生 Meet Dr. Juan Questa.
胡安 这位是伊丽莎白·阿彻 Juan, meet Elizabeth Archer,
一直是我的病人 办公室奥运选手 my long-time patient and office Olympian.
你好 伊丽莎白 Hello, Elizabeth.
新医生出现都不是什么好现象 Never a great sign when a new doctor shows up.
今天是个例外 Today is an exception.
胡安不是肿瘤医生 Juan isn't an oncologist.
他是整形外科医生 He's an orthopedic surgeon.
你现在的背痛 The back pain you're experiencing
来源于你之前骨肉瘤被移除的部位 is from where your osteosarcoma was removed.
但这不是癌症复发 But this isn't a recurrence.
我们看了你的PET扫描 We've examined your PET scan,
你已经没有癌症了 and you are cancer-free.
太好了 That's great.
那么 So...
为什么要两个医生 why two doctors?
肿瘤被切除后 Now when the tumor was taken out,
植入了一块金属板为保证稳定 a metal plate was installed for stability.
不幸的是 它移动了 Unfortunately, it's moved.
所以引起了你的不适感 That's what's causing your discomfort.
修复它需要再做一场手术 Fixing it will require another surgery.
但奎斯塔医生会好好照顾你 But you are in great hands with Dr. Questa.
这是我的错吗 Is this my fault?
完全不是 Not at all.
我做了什么不该做的动作吗 Did I move in some way that I shouldn't have?
我经常做拉伸运动 I do a lot of stretching.
不 已经十年了 No, it's been 10 years.
时间流逝 身体会变化 硬件也会 Over time, the body shifts, and hardware can shift with it.
但如果我早点去看医生 But if I'd gone to the doctor sooner,
我也许根本不需要这块金属板 I might never have needed the plate at all,
也许肿瘤不会长得那么大 and maybe the tumor wouldn't have grown so big.
丽兹 Liz...
这些都不是你的错 nothing that's happened is your fault.
我们谈过了 We've talked about this.
为何纠问原因 天哪 这真难以控制 And why ask why, and, man, it's hard to stop.
好吧 Okay.
我们动手术吧 Let's do some surgery.
需要六单位新鲜冰冻血浆来巩固止血 Ordering six units of FFP to augment hemostasis.
移除金属板 Plate removed.
图示切除部位正常 Diagrammatic exclusion normal.
伤疤组织呢 Where is the scar tissue?
什么 Excuse me?
你看 Look.
翠西 四号应该就在这个托盘上 Trish, number four should be right on the tray.
呼叫麦克斯 Page Max.
这是她之前手术的区域 This is the site of her previous surgery.
-没有很多损伤 -没错 - Not a lot of damage. - Exactly.
如果这里的一个大肿瘤被切除 If a sizeable tumor had been removed from this area,
那一大部分骨髓应该也被一起切除了 a large chunk of spinal cord would've been taken with it.
肯定会有很多不规整的伤疤组织 You'd see a ton of irregular scar tissue.
但这里只有平整的一个切口 Instead, there's just one clean cut.
不是癌症让她下半身瘫痪 麦克斯 Cancer didn't put her in a wheelchair, Max.
看起来是她的手术医生干的 It looks like her surgeon did.
她肯定从那之后做了无数次扫描 She must've had multiple scans since then.
-肯定有人会看到 -不 因为有这块金属板 - Surely, someone would've seen-- - No, not with the plate.
这块板子使得她无法做核磁共振 The plate made it impossible to give her an MRI
而且在CT片子上有太多噪点 and created too much artifact on a CT scan
导致无法看清该区域 to see the area clearly.
但这个板子放在那里肯定有一定理由 对吧 But there was a structural reason for the plate to be there, right?
我觉得没必要 None that I can see.
所以是我们干的 So we did this.
一个新阿姆斯特丹医生切断了她的脊髓 A New Amsterdam doctor cut her spinal cord.
还放进一个金属板想掩盖一切 And put a plate inside her to cover it up.
她确实得过癌症 这是真的 She did have cancer. That was real.
没错 但不是让她下身瘫痪的原因 Yeah, but that's not what put her in the chair.
是我们害的 她有权知道 We did, and she deserves to know that.
她会的 She will.
我们一定会告诉她 We are absolutely gonna tell her.
-现在 -麦克斯 - Now. - Max,
我们需要看手术报告 we need to see the op report.
我们要和当时的主刀医生谈谈 We need to speak with the original surgeon.
我们现在没理由不告诉她 There's no reason that we can't tell her right now.
我们还没有掌握所有事实 We don't have all the facts.
如果我们搞错了 And if we're wrong about any of this,
如果我们给她更多的错误信息... if we give her more misinformation...
今天就到这里吧 Let's take the day.
留24小时找到真相 24 hours to get at the truth,
然后我们一起跟她谈 and then we will talk to her together.
好吧 All right.
隔膜壁肌肉过度生长 分离切除 Septal wall muscular overgrowth isolated and resected.
准备进行病理证实 Ready for pathological confirmation.
心脏应该好了 杜克医生 Heart should be repaired now, Dr. Duke.
该结束了 It's closing time.
用5-0缝合线吗 5-0 Prolene on a stick?
没错 That's right.
静脉注射剂生理盐水 Got an IV of normal saline going.
弗洛伊德 这不是心肌病 Floyd, this is not cardiomyopathy.
但玛凯拉的心脏肥大 But Makayla's heart was hypertrophied.
没错 你做手术也是对的 Absolutely, and you were right to operate,
但那是因为异常血细胞的渗透 but it's because of an infiltration of abnormal blood cells.
恐怕这个女孩得了白血病 I'm afraid this girl has leukemia.
白血病 Leukemia.
幸运的是 我们发现得早 Fortunately, we caught it early.
但她需要骨髓移植 But she will need a bone marrow transplant.
我不能帮她吗 And I can't help her?
你的血型不匹配 Well, your blood type isn't a match.
AB型阳性血很少见 AB positive is pretty rare.
我已经把玛凯拉写进了骨髓捐赠者名单 I did put Makayla on the marrow donor registry,
但我得跟你说实话 but I gotta be honest with you.
可能要等好几个月 It could take months.
所以你需要一个血亲吗 So you need a blood relative?
如果我们能找到匹配的人 If we can find someone that is a match,
机会应该要比等待要大 the odds will be much stronger than waiting.
我从来都不是那种 You know, I've never been the type of woman
求男人陪自己孩子的女人 to beg a man to be in his child's life.
玛凯拉的父亲还活着 Makayla's father is alive.
她不知道 我也不想让她知道 She doesn't know, and I don't want her to.
如果你需要我给他打个电话 If you need me to call him...
我会想办法的 I'll find the strength.
或者我可以打 Or I can do it.
如果... I mean, yeah, if it...
能帮到忙的话 if it helps.
好 Okay.
这是索福克勒斯的戏剧 This is a play by Sophocles.
菲罗克塔塔斯 Phillock...tatas?
不是 接近了 No. Close.
《菲罗克忒忒斯》 "Philoctetes."
这是在伯罗奔尼撒战争时期写成的 It was written during the Peloponnesian War,
着重描写了残疾 and it focuses heavily on themes of disability,
忠诚 以及军队内部的宽恕 loyalty, and forgiveness all within the military.
一般被认为是一场伦理悲剧 It is considered an ethical tragedy.
它的目的是在战争时期激发 It was aimed to incite a certain sense of duty
希腊人民的某种责任感 within the Greeks during a time of war.
是英文版吗 Is it in English?
实际上 As a matter of fact,
我们看的是我最喜欢的译本之一 we are using one of my favorite translations of all time.
我翻译的 先别鼓掌 Mine. Hold your applause.
阿米莉娅 你来扮演尼奥普托列墨斯 Amalia, you will be playing the role of Neoptolemus.
尼奥什么 Neo...what?
很好 我喜欢这个名字 That's good. I like that.
我们就简称他为尼奥 We'll shorten it to Neo.
尼奥曾经是一名尽职尽责的士兵 Neo was a once-dutiful soldier
他和一名高级军官出现了分歧 who has a disagreement with a ranking officer
最终决定站出来说些什么 and decides to finally stand up and say something.
上校 你来扮演奥德赛 Colonel, you will be playing Odysseus,
我们的指挥官 our commander.
但为了方便起见 不如叫你奥蒂斯吧 But for ease of use, why don't we call you Otis?
奥蒂斯想带领军队打胜仗 Otis wants to march his warriors onto victory,
但是因为自己最好的士兵受了重伤 but he is confronted with the fallout of a choice he's made
他就把这士兵抛弃了 to abandon one of his best soldiers
现在他需要面对这个选择带来的后果 after he's been badly injured.
我从来没抛弃过任何人 Never abandoned anyone.
我不是说你 I didn't say you did.
现在 最后... Now, finally...
内森 你来扮演我们的主角 Nathan, you will be playing our title role
菲罗克忒忒斯 of Philoctetes.
好 你的角色 在受了重伤之后 Okay, and your character, after being badly injured,
被逐出了军队 独自留在岛上 is ejected from the military and left on an island alone.
剩下的人就是希腊戏剧合唱团 The rest of you will be my Greek chorus.
嘿 Hey!
我不会唱歌 I can't sing.
我可不信 但你大可不必唱 Oh, I highly doubt that, but you won't have to.
这种疗法有什么用 How is this therapy?
那是个好问题 That's a good question.
就像内森说的那样 As Nathan wisely stated,
他无法用语言来表达自己的感受 he does not have the words to communicate how you feel.
这场戏能够让你表达出来 This play can give them to you.
好吗 最后一件事 Okay? One last thing.
四点钟幕布会升起来 Curtain goes up at four.
等等 我们要在观众面前表演吗 Wait, we're doing this in front of people?
对 Yes.
请在提示音后留言 At the tone, please record your message.
贝尔先生 Mr. Bell,
我是新阿姆斯特丹医院的雷诺兹医生 this is Dr. Reynolds from New Amsterdam Hospital.
很抱歉通知你 I'm sorry to report
你女儿被诊断出白血病 that your daughter has been diagnosed with leukemia.
现在她需要骨髓移植 Now she needs a bone marrow transplant,
我们正在给亲属们打电话 and we are calling relatives
看看是否能找到匹配 to see if we can find a match.
我知道你离开你的女儿 I know that you are estranged from your daughter
已经有一段时间了 and have been for a while,
但是 but...
她现在需要你 she needs you right now.
你也许能救她一命 You could save her life.
做个英雄 Be a hero.
出现在她的生命里 Just by showing up...
这也是... which is something--
我希望我父亲能为我做的事 I wish my father had done.
术前化验结果 病理分析 Pre-op labs, pathology.
手术报告 主刀医生是杰拉尔德·托曼 Surgical report. Dr. Was Gerald Tollman.
你认识他吗 You know him?
不认识 他2011年离开了 我还没来 Nope. He left in 2011. That was before my time.
「手术过程中 我发现一个肿瘤 "During procedure, I discovered a tumor
阻断了患者脊髓 "strangling the patient's spinal cord.
不切断脊髓无法移除肿瘤 "It was impossible to remove without transecting the spine.
需要用金属板固定脊柱」 Plate was necessary to maintain stability."
这真是一派胡言 That's a complete lie.
基于奎斯塔说的 Based on what Questa said.
基于我们看到的 Based on what we saw.
你知道当时还有谁在手术室里吗 Do you know who else was in the room?
知道 还有玛克辛·维斯特 麻醉师 Yes. We have Maxine West, anesthesia.
乔·麦格瑞 助理护士 Joe McGrain, scrub nurse.
艾莎·巴沙 巡回护士 Easha Bashar, circulating nurse.
怎么了 What?
实习生是... Intern was...
克林特·哈特曼 Clint Hartman.
麦克斯 麦克斯 不管你要怎么做 Max, Max--please, whatever you're gonna do--
他活该 He deserves.
所以我说看着 So I said watch it.
如果你不喜欢你的医生 Jets tickets are what you get your doctor
-就送他喷气机队的球票 -请让我们单独谈谈 - when you don't like him. - Give us the room, please.
麦克斯 Max.
怎么了 What is it?
你说谎了 You lied.
麦克斯 Max.
我跟你说了不止一遍 I've told you again and again
我无能为力 that there was nothing that I could do.
-乔治娅 -我不是来 - Georgia-- - I'm not here...
跟你谈她的 to talk about her.
好 那是怎么了 Okay, then, what?
伊丽莎白·阿彻 杰拉尔德·托曼 Elizabeth Archer. Gerald Tollman.
他让她余生都坐在轮椅上 而你就站在那里 You stood there while he put her in a wheelchair for life.
否认吗 Deny it?
无法否认 I can't.
托曼医生是当时的科室主任 Dr. Tollman was the department chair.
那是我的第三场手术 It was my third surgery.
他犯了个错误 He made a mistake.
错误 A mistake?
那你还为他保密 And you kept his secret.
他一直坚持让我忘记 He kept insisting that I forget...
自己看见了什么 what I'd seen.
医生们都是这样 That's what doctors do.
我们就是这么互相关照的 That's how we take care of each other.
我试着去相信他 也想相信他 I tried to believe him. Wanted to believe him.
但我知道我永远无法心安 But I knew I'd never be able to live with myself,
所以 和当时在场的其他人不同 and so, unlike everybody else in that room,
我举报了他 I reported him.
你举报了他 You reported him?
第二天 The next day.
没有任何记录 There's no record of that.
我一点也不惊讶 I am not surprised.
不好意思 Sorry.
你举报了一个 You reported a doctor
掩盖自己手术失败的医生 who covered up a botched surgery,
但是却没有任何调查记录 and there is no record of an investigation?
你到底向谁举报了他 Who the hell did you report him to?
医学院院长 The dean of medicine.
彼得·富尔顿 Peter Fulton.
我全都告诉他了 I told him everything.
什么都没发生 Nothing happened.
等等 奥蒂斯 Oh, whoa, whoa, Otis.
我想让你从舞台左侧上台 还记得吗 I want you coming from stage left, remember?
我们为什么非要动来动去呢 Why do we have to move at all?
「言行一致」 "Suit the action to the word,
「行言一致」 and the word to the action."
出自《哈姆雷特》 It's "Hamlet."
有人知道吗 Anybody?
不用在意 Never mind.
接着刚才的演 继续 From the same spot. Go ahead.
就在前面 大人 Up ahead, my lord.
那里正是我们所寻之山洞 Yonder is the cave we doth seek.
我一定这么之乎者也吗 Do you I really have to say "doth?"
是的 要说 Yes, you "doth."
只是... Just, uh...
继续 伙计们 我马上回来 好吗 carry on, guys. I'll be back in a sec, okay?
我来了 I'm coming.
你觉得你在干什么 What do you think you're doing?
-排演戏剧 -希腊悲剧 - Theater. - A Greek tragedy?
《菲罗克忒忒斯》 "Philoctetes?"
是 我觉得这有治愈效果 Yeah. I think it'll be healing.
我觉得你是疯了 I think it's madness.
为什么 Why?
伊吉 内森不能扮演在战争中受了伤 Iggy, Nathan cannot play a soldier
还被军队抛弃的士兵 injured in the war and cast off by the army.
-为什么不能 -因为他本人就是 - Why not? - Because he is a soldier
因为受了伤被军队抛弃的士兵 injured in the war cast off by the army.
他不是被抛弃的 他失去了一条腿 He was not cast off. He lost his leg.
但你不能让他重温那样的经历 But you cannot make him relive that experience.
那太痛苦了 It's too painful.
换个其他戏剧怎么样 What about some other play?
轻松一点的 Something lighter?
比如呢 Such as?
《妈妈咪呀》 "Mamma Mia."
那是音乐剧 That's a musical.
那就《小泥车》 Okay. "Mricchakatika."
我不熟 I'm not familiar.
公元前四世纪的一部梵语戏剧 It's a Sanskrit play written in 4th century B.C.
作者跋娑 是部欢快热闹的喜剧 by Bhasa. It's a comedy, a joyful romp.
我没兴趣 我就想排索福克勒斯的戏 Okay, I'm not interested. I want to stick with Sophocles.
这是个错误的选择 I think it's a big mistake.
你何必如此介意 Why do you care so much?
我选择「菲罗克忒忒斯」是有理由的 I picked "Philoctetes" for a reason.
它能帮助士兵们把心底最深处 The text gives words to these soldiers'
最脆弱的想法和感受宣之于口 deepest and most vulnerable thoughts and feelings.
这就是我选择它的原因 That is why I chose it,
这正是他们当下所需要的 知道吗 because that's what they need right now, all right?
内森告诉你他不想演了吗 Did Nathan say that he doesn't want to do this?
没有 No.
可他是我的病人 But he's my patient.
是 但他也是我的病人 Yeah, but he's my patient, too.
噢 Oh.
我知道你在第一次手术后 I understand it took quite a while
花了不少时间才重新站起来 for you to get back on your feet after your first surgery.
对 但那是因为我没吃止痛药 Yes, but that's because I wasn't taking pain meds.
是的 我和你之前的理疗师利根医生谈过 Yes, I spoke with your former physical therapist, Dr. Ligon.
他烂透了 对吧 He's the worst, right?
我和他没那么熟 I don't really know him that well.
你也不会想和他熟的 Well, you don't want to.
他也同意你可以进入第二疗程 Well, he agreed that you were ready for a second procedure.
真的吗 我没问题了吗 Really? So I'm cleared?
是的 但在排期之前 Yes, but before we schedule,
我们要先讨论你的术后护理 we need to discuss your post-op care.
之前你可以选择不用药物... You may have opted out of the meds before--
知道吗 我真的不需要药物 No, you know what? I really don't need them.
相信我 我已经在做一些心智训练... Trust me. I've actually been working on some mental exercises--
不行 No.
不行吗 No?
布鲁姆医生 我尊重你想保持清醒的决心 Dr. Bloom, I respect your commitment to sobriety,
但接下来的治疗是心理手段克服不了的 but won't be able to psych your way through this.
但我之前做到了 确实很难... But I've done it before. I mean, it was tough--
恢复过程会比以前痛苦得多 This recovery will be far more painful.
也更为重要 And certainly more important.
如果迟迟不能恢复 你可能永远丧失行动力 If drawn out, your mobility could be permanently impaired.
不吃止痛药 你不可能扛过去 There's no way you can get through this without painkillers.
问题不是你要不要吃药 So the question isn't whether you will be taking medication,
而是要负责任地服药 but if you can find a way to take it responsibly.
他在等你 He's been waiting for you.
需要帮忙吗 Can I help you?
你是雷诺兹医生吗 Yeah, are you Dr. Reynolds?
是的 Yes.
我是玛凯拉的爸爸 I'm Makayla's dad.
切口要在至少48小时内保持干爽 We'll need to keep the incision dry for at least 48 hours.
-好的 -等她醒来... - Yeah, of course. - And when she wakes up--
我醒了 I'm awake.
手术怎么样 How'd it go?
金属板固定了吗 Is the plate fixed?
被取出了 It was removed.
我不明白 I don't understand.
奎斯塔医生把它取出来了 Dr. Questa took it out.
取出铁板 那我怎么坐起来 But if it's out, how will I sit up?
我们发现 你其实并不需要它 Well, as it turns out, you may not actually need it.
这说不通啊 This doesn't make sense.
没有板子我连椅子都坐不住 I can't sit in my chair without the plate.
我必须坐起来 如果连这都做不到 I have to be able to sit, because if I can't do that,
我就一无是处了 I can't do anything.
我们很快会有答案的 伊丽莎白 我保证 We'll have answers soon, Elizabeth, I promise, but...
但是现在 我只能说这么多 but for now, that's all I'm at liberty to say.
好吧 Right.
进来 Come on in.
抱歉家里乱 Uh, forgive the mess.
早知道今天有贵客到 Had I known that this was inquisition day,
我就收拾了 I'd have tidied.
有个女人被害得坐轮椅 A woman's in a wheelchair.
你们觉得是我害的 And you think that I put her there.
你们该找的是杰拉尔德·托曼 The man you should talk to is Dr. Gerald Tollman.
这不是流氓医生的问题 This isn't about a rogue doctor.
而是有人蓄意掩盖真相 This was a cover-up.
你把医院的声誉... You put the integrity of this hospital--
我所考虑的不是声誉 The word I'm thinking about isn't integrity,
是诉讼 it's litigation.
这种案件能让医院倒闭 Cases like this get hospitals shuttered.
再过几分钟 So as I only have a few minutes
我就要给董事会开会 before I have to address our board,
我必须赶在几千名律师登门讨伐之前 let me get ahead of the 5,000 lawyers
问你一个问题 who'll be coming for your scalp by asking one question.
你当时到底在想什么 What the hell were you thinking?
你在笑吗 彼得 Are you smiling, Peter?
对不起 I'm sorry.
我在努力显得羞愧一些 I was trying to dredge up my ashamed face,
但做不到 but it just wouldn't come.
不如去伊丽莎白的康复病房看看 Maybe you'd like to visit Elizabeth's recovery room.
好吧 Okay.
对于这种道德诘问 我暂且按下愤怒 I'll put aside my pique at your moralizing
把重点放在新阿姆斯特丹 and just focus on New Amsterdam.
你担心的是诉讼 You're worried about lawsuits.
那么如果我吊销了托曼的执照 So if I had gone after Tollman's license,
他不但会起诉 还会胜诉 not only would he have sued, he'd have won.
克林特·哈特曼已经准备作证了 Clint Hartman was ready to testify.
你觉得陪审团会相信谁呢 And who do you think a jury would've believed, hmm?
杰拉尔德·托曼 神经外科主任 Gerald Tollman, chair of neurosurgery
荣誉头衔列出来比你的胳膊还长 with a list of accolades longer than your arm,
还是28岁的实习医生克林特 or his 28-year-old intern Clint?
你的回应就是坐视不理 So your answer was to do nothing?
不 我的回应是把他撤下岗位 Oh, no, my answer was pulling him from rotation
赶出医院 and getting him the hell out of the hospital
确保他不会再伤害其他人 and making sure that he doesn't hurt anyone else.
没有诉讼 没有报道 No lawsuits. No headlines.
唯一留下的是伊丽莎白·阿彻的不幸哀伤 The only trace is the grief for Elizabeth Archer,
且我感同身受 which by the way, I share.
据我所知 正是我的选择 And the knowledge that because of my choices,
为新阿姆斯特丹保全了神经外科 New Amsterdam has a neurosurgery department
交给你们来糟蹋 for you two to screw up.
你应该上报董事会 You should've gone to the board.
报给那些门外汉 亿万富翁 Dilettantes? Billionaires?
他们是你的雇主 They were your employers.
他们当中没有一个医生 And not a doctor among the bunch.
你认识医院任何一个医生吗 布兰特利女士 Do you know any of these doctors, Madame Brantley?
你认识吗 Do you?
如果这事被爆出来 The doctors who, if all this came out,
这些人会失去工作 失去整个职业生涯 would've lost their jobs, their professions?
是我在保护他们 I protected them.
我保护了自己人 这是我的功劳 I take care of my own, and that is my legacy.
我为此感到自豪 And man, I am proud of it.
你的功劳是判断错误铸下大过 Your legacy is a profound error in judgment,
也让我对自己的错误悔之莫及 which I can relate to as I made one myself
我该早点让你滚蛋 when I didn't fire your ass sooner.
古德温式傲慢用错了地方 The wrong end of the Goodwin high horse.
真想念过去 Oh, how I missed it.
我曾经敬仰你 I looked up to you.
我知道 I know.
作为领导 As a leader...
唯一值得问的问题是 The only question worth asking...
如果捍卫新阿姆斯特丹的代价 Is if the cost of protecting New Amsterdam
是你的良知 你愿意吗 is your conscience, will your pay?
如果答案是不愿意 And if the answer is no...
你这个领导恐怕没自己以为的那么好 You're not the leader you think you are.
费城圣弗朗西斯医院 St. Francis in Philadelphia,
波特兰罗斯希尔医院 Rose Hill in Portland,
芝加哥乡镇儿童医院 County Children's in Chicago,
这都是托曼害伊丽莎白·阿彻残疾后 all hospitals Tollman has worked at
工作过的地方 since he crippled Elizabeth Archer.
你不禁会想 It makes you wonder
他到底为什么跳槽得如此频繁 不是吗 why he moves around so much, doesn't it?
你会想 Makes you wonder,
到底还有多少个伊丽莎白·阿彻 how many more Elizabeth Archers are there?
要生存 总有不得已 We do what we have to to survive.
那是你 You do.
我要让这人再也拿不起手术刀 I'm gonna make sure that man never lifts another scalpel.
麦克斯 Max.
领导的决定总让自己彻夜难眠 Leaders makes choices that keep them up at night.
你若高枕无忧 If you're sleeping well...
便是工作未尽心力 you're not doing your job.
我从没试过这个 Never really done anything like this before.
过程其实很简单 It's actually a fairly simple procedure.
我们给你局部麻醉 We'll give you regional anesthesia.
让你感受不到针头穿刺 That way, you won't feel the needle.
那是她吗 Is that her?
她长这么大了 She got so big.
我们接着走吧 I think we should keep it moving.
我上次见她时 她还是个小娃娃 She was just a tiny little thing the last time I saw her.
那是多久前 How long has it been?
我不知道 I don't know.
十一... 11...
-十二年 -十二年 - 12 years. - 12 years.
你 You...
还会想起她吗 you still think about her?
虽然... I mean, even though...
你爸还在吗 Your old man around?
不在了 No.
有时这也许不是坏事 Maybe sometimes that's not a bad thing.
呃... So, uh...
医生批准我的第二次手术了 I got approved for my second surgery.
天哪 Gosh, that's...
太好了 不是吗 that's great, isn't it?
是的 太好了 Yeah, yeah, it's great.
但是汉德勒医生说 我必须吃止痛药 But Dr. Handler says that I need to take pain meds.
只有这样才能完全康复 It's my only chance of a full recovery.
我需要快速康复才能回到急诊室 Being in the ED means being quick on my feet.
我不能... I can't...
不能拿我的行动力冒险 I can't risk my mobility.
但是如果不吃药... But if I try to do this without meds...
我不知道 I don't know. If...
如果真的像汉德勒说得那么痛的话 if the pain is as extreme as Handler says it is,
那... then...
我可能会复发 Then I might relapse.
算了 我只是想告诉你 Anyway, I just wanted to let you know
-我的尿检什么的... -劳拉 - because, you know, my pee tests and everything-- - Lauren,
我们可以调整你的工作场所监护协议 we can modify your workplace monitoring agreement
允许服用处方药 to allow for prescribed meds.
但现在更重要的是 But more importantly, right now,
你需要一个你能信任的人 I think you need someone who you can trust
负责任地定量给你配药 and who can dole out your medication responsibly...
只在需要时才给 and only when needed.
你说得对 我打给我妈 You're right. I'll call my mother.
我想做那个人 I would like to be that person.
相信我 你不会想的 Trust me. You wouldn't.
你的朋友 Your friend.
我们要在所有访客面前演吗 We're doing it out here in front of all the visitors?
对呀 不只是访客 Um, yeah, not just in front of visitors.
我还邀请了医院的员工 I invited staff, too.
哇 穿上制服了 帅 Yes. Breaking out the uniform. Nice.
我夫人给我买的 My wife brought it for me.
好的 演员们 来 Um, okay, players, please.
围成一圈 Come into the round.
所以 So...
如果你没在台上念台词 when you are not up here standing, delivering your lines,
那就坐在椅子上 I'd like you seated on the bench.
但最重要的是 But most importantly,
记住一定要开放心胸 remember that you need to stay open,
保持状态 让索福克勒斯成为你的声音 present, and let Sophocles be your voice, okay?
内特呢 Where's Nate?
在那边 Over there.
大家先排练吧 Okay, why don't you guys play in the space, okay?
感受一下 Feel it out.
内特 我们马上要开始了 Nate. Hey, we're about to get started.
我做不了 弗罗姆医生 I can't do this, Dr. Frome.
你肯定能行 直接读就是了 Sure you can. You just gotta read.
不行 我试过了 我不行 No, I tried. I can't.
我承受不了 It's too much.
没有你可不行 伙计 Well, we can't do this without you, buddy.
我知道 I know, I know.
这场戏是关于我的 But the play is me.
对 Yeah.
这是我的人生经历 我想说的话 It's my experience. It's my words.
我说不出口 I don't think I can say them.
我... I...
我可以帮你说出来 I could say them for you.
维贾伊 你怎么... Vijay? What are you...
如果你愿意让我加入... If you will have me...
我来演内森的角色 I will assume Nathan's role.
为了他 In his honor.
这个提议很不错 维贾伊 That's--that's a real nice offer, Vijay,
但这场戏是给士兵们演的 but this is kind of for the soldiers.
你懂我的意思吧 You know what I mean?
维贾伊 等一下 Vijay--oh, okay. Hang on.
朋友们 My friends.
我是维贾伊·卡普尔 I am Vijay Kapoor.
我曾在第四印度步兵团服过役 I was in the 4th Indian infantry.
如果你们允许的话... With your permission...
我想加入你们 I would like to join your company.
你为什么现在告诉我 Why are you telling me this now?
因为我看你对自己无数次的质问 Because I've seen you question yourself so many times.
不断的自责 And blame yourself.
现在你知道了这些都不是你的错 Now you know that none of this was your fault.
是我们的错 It was ours.
所以我的病情都是谎言吗 So everything that happened to me was a lie.
肿瘤是真的 但是... The tumor was real, but...
你并不是因为肿瘤才坐上轮椅的 you didn't need to end up in a wheelchair because of it.
每隔六个月 我都会来见你 Every six months when I come to see you,
你给我做检查 做扫描 告诉我做得不错 you'd check on me, do a scan, tell me I was doing better.
如果没有移除那块金属板 And there's no way that she could've seen this
我们也发现不了 without removing the plate.
你还想为了终于坦白真相而要个金星奖励吗 So you want a gold star for finally telling me the truth?
不是 No.
不是的 我们是想... No, we want--
我不管你们怎么想 I don't care what you want.
事情就是这样 Here's what's gonna happen.
-伊丽莎白 -别说了 - Elizabeth-- - No.
我要去找最嗜血最犀利的 I'm gonna get the most blood-thirsty
医疗事故诉讼律师 malpractice attorney I can find,
我要把这家医院告到倾家荡产 and I'm gonna sue this hospital back to the Stone Age.
贝尔先生呢 Where's Mr. Bell?
捐献完就走了 Finished his donation and left.
雷诺兹医生 Hey, Dr. Reynolds.
谢谢你帮我修复心脏 Thanks for fixing my heart.
随时效劳 Anytime.
找捐献者是不是很难 Was it hard to find a donor?
有时的确很难 You know, sometimes it is,
但今天我们很走运 but today, we got lucky.
我能见见他们吗 Can I meet them?
他们想保持匿名 They want to remain anonymous.
要知道 有些人 You know, some people
觉得保持距离会更好 just figure that they're better at a distance.
我去去就回 好吗 宝贝 I'll be right back. Okay, babe?
-好 -马上回来 - Okay. - Right back.
找到捐献骨髓是第一步 So getting the marrow is the first step.
现在该用它了 Now we have to use it, all right?
为了移植成功 To do that,
我得先进行化疗清理她的免疫系统 I'm going to have to wipe out her system with chemo,
然后用她父亲的骨髓干细胞进行重建 and then rebuild it with her father's stem cells.
长路漫漫 Long road.
但她的机会很大 But she's got great odds.
谢谢你给她爸爸打电话 Thank you for making that call to her dad.
你之前说得没错 You were right about him.
我只是希望他能更在乎一点 I guess I just wish that he cared more.
你知道的 You know?
希望他能来 That he'd hang around,
做出正确的决定 you know, and just do the right thing.
他的确做了 Well, he did.
他来了 He showed up.
我们都对此无比感激 不是吗 We can all be grateful for that, right?
我就知道你一瘸一拐的... I knew you'd come limping--
闭嘴 好好听着 Hose it down, and listen up.
我做完手术 After my surgery,
得吃止痛片 I'm gonna have to take pain pills.
因为我相信自己 And because I don't trust myself,
我需要一个人帮我管着药 I need someone else to be in charge of them,
一个如果我要求的药量超过规定 someone who is gonna give me hell
就会狠狠罚我的人 if I ask for more than I'm prescribed.
这个人必须清楚对于嗑药上瘾的来说 Someone who understands that for addicts,
疼痛比愉悦感更安全 pain is safer than pleasure.
这个人对口头辱骂的阈值很高 Someone who has a high threshold for verbal abuse,
不会因别人的痛苦而受影响 is unaffected by human suffering,
并且有虐待狂倾向般的 and who might sadistically
喜欢掌控我的日常生活 enjoy controlling my daily will to live.
我最不需要的就是朋友 What I don't need is a friend.
是我疯了 还是你是我要找的人 Am I crazy, or are you my guy?
都有吧 Both, it seems.
-很好 那...-别说了 劳拉 - Good, so-- Stop talking, Lauren.
我把话说清楚 Let me be clear.
你现在的处境 我也曾经历过好几次 I've been down the road you're on several times,
我知道所有的花招 所有的借口 so I know all the tricks, all the excuses,
以及所有的谎言 and all the lies.
你无路可逃 You're not gonna get away with anything.
作为全世界最讲病理 As the world's most pathologically
最光荣的医生 honorable doctor,
估计你已经把真相告诉伊丽莎白·阿彻了吧 I assume you've already told Elizabeth Archer the truth.
你的估计很正确 You assume correctly.
还很聪明 太多人知道了 Probably smart. Too many people know.
肯定要曝光的 所以还是抢先一步吧 It's bound to get out. Better to get ahead of it.
这数额也太高了 It's a big number.
足够能劝她结案了 Big enough to convince her to settle?
可能吧 不过我希望她不结案 Probably, but I hope she doesn't.
你想让她告我们 You want her to sue us?
你和富尔顿斗得好像敌对关系一样 其实不然 You and Fulton fought like you're on opposite sides, but you're not.
你俩都支持掩饰太平 You're both advocating for a cover-up.
唯一的区别是你会开支票 The only difference is you're writing a check.
总比糊弄那女人好点吧 Better than gaslighting the woman.
但还是不如向社会公开 But not as good as going public.
我起草了一条新政策 I'm writing a new policy.
完全透明化 Total transparency.
我要向全世界公布托曼的所作所为 I want to tell the world about Tollman,
不管后果怎么样 and let the chips fall where they may.
这是为了不再次发生托曼这种事故的唯一方法 It's the only way to prevent another Tollman from happening.
他也会起诉我们的 Well, he'll sue us, too.
那就让他告 So let him.
你根本没搞清楚 麦克斯 You're not thinking this through, Max.
如果我们公开每一个庸医 If we broadcast every subpar doctor
每一个行为不端的护士 and corner-cutting nurse to the world,
我们医院的形象也会彻底崩溃 our image will be in tatters.
我们会变成「丧命」医院 We'll be the hospital where you go to get killed.
不 我们会变成拥有负责医生的医院 No, we'll be the hospital that holds doctors accountable.
我们会成为永远支持病患的医院 And we'll be the hospital that sides with their patients
不计任何代价 no matter the price.
我知道这不是理想的解决方法 I know it's not a perfect solution,
我也知道肯定会造成影响 and I know there will be consequences,
但是... but...
这是唯一的方法 this is the only way.
希望如此吧 I hope so.
咱们的职业生涯就以此决生死了 Our careers will be riding on it.
士兵 你居然敢违抗我 Soldier, do you dare defy me?
你没看见我手扶在剑柄上吗 Do you not see my hand upon my sword?
我不怕 长官 I fear it not, sir.
我在您的麾下行军已久 Long have I marched under your standard,
但是今天 but today...
你却背弃了我们的一名同袍 you turned your back on one of our own.
这代表你背弃了我们所有人 Thus, you turned your back on us all.
我的行动要考虑到多方面因素 士兵 My actions must consider the many, soldier,
即使要付出一些代价 even at the expense of the few.
我坚持我的选择 I stand by my choice,
这是我的职责所在 for it is my charge and duty to do so.
那我也不必再听您的命令了 Then I shall obey your command no longer.
至于您的灵魂 我会为它祈祷 And for your soul, I will pray.
BGM: Fortaleza by Hanging Valleys
♪ And never our strength ♪
♪ Shall falter ♪
我已经逐渐习惯这里了 I had grown accustomed to my station here.
忍受着 犹如迷失在梦中 Enduring it as if lost in a dream.
你的病历 Your medical records.
但今天 我睁开了眼睛 But today, my eyes have been opened.
今天 我醒了 Today, I awake.
我承受苦难的时间太久 Too long have I suffered adversity.
那些行动所产生的痛苦保护了我 Pain from the actions of those entrusted with protecting me.
我会坚定地前进 我的过去无法定义我 Forging on, my past shall not define me,
即使我忍着恐惧 even as I stand afeard a resurgence
害怕内心的脆弱再次复苏 of my true vulnerabilities.
我想邀请我爸来参加婚礼
终于到了要抛弃这个小岛的时刻了 The time has come at last to abandon this isle.
就此离去 再也不回头 To depart, never to return.
一路顺风 返回家乡 Fare thee well, O home.
不用再等我回来了 Wait for my return no longer.
我会继续前进 Onward I must proceed
每一步都坚定有力... with strength in each footfall...
但我永远忘不了... Evermore haunted with the memories...
那个曾经的自己 of the man I used to be.
我的老家 For my old home...
已被我弃之身后 is now behind me.
信仰是我的新家 Faith is my new home.
各位演员们 Guys, my players, everybody.
真是精彩的演出 What a performance.
我之前都不知道 I never knew.
这种事我一直都不想说 This wasn't something I wish to speak about.
直到现在 Until now.
过来 Come here.
谁来了 Who's there?
我马上回来 I'll be right back.
你们怎么来了 What are you guys doing here?
是她的主意 It was her idea.
我知道你说过不喜欢陌生人 I know that you said you don't want strangers
来你家 但我们不是陌生人 in your house, but we're not strangers.
而且我很肯定 And I am fairly certain
你家的水槽肯定堆满了脏盘子 that you have a sink full of dirty dishes.
顺便说一下 我不擦窗户 Just FYI, I don't do windows.
劳拉 你站都站不稳 Lauren, you can barely stand.
没错 但我很擅长发号施令 True, but I'm good at giving orders.
请人进来吧 没事 It's okay to let people in.