抱歉 我不是想吓你 Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you.
我以为你走了 I thought you left.
除非你想让我走 Not until you want me to.
医 院 革 命 第二季 第八集
萨米拉的豆腐培根 Okay, we got Sameera's tofu bacon,
哈珀的普通培根和拉菲的火鸡培根 Harper's regular bacon, and Raffi's turkey bacon.
如果我去接哈珀和萨米拉下空手道课 Hey, if I pick up Harper and Sameera from karate,
你能去龙与地牢游戏班接拉菲吗 will you grab Raffi from D&D?
可以 剩下就是萨米拉4点上钢琴课 Yes, that just leaves Saleem's piano at 4:00.
不学钢琴 我说了 No more piano. I told you!
是会省不少钱 Well, it would save money,
但是 我们是不是该教他们坚持到底 but, um, shouldn't we be teaching them to stick it out?
我去叫孩子们 I will grab the troops.
好 谢谢 宝贝 Okay. Thanks, babe.
-喂 -弗罗姆医生 我是罗兹 - Hello? - Dr. Frome? It's Roz.
罗兹 你好 Roz, hey. Hi.
好消息 我给你们找到了一个宝宝 Great news. I have a baby for you.
什么 你有一个真正的... What? You--you have, like, a real--
现在吗 uh, uh, now?
你和马丁有24小时时间 You and Martin have 24 hours to report
去得州布朗斯维尔 填写正式的领养文件 to Brownsville, Texas to start the custody paperwork.
这时间可不充裕 罗兹 That's--that's not a lot of hours, Roz.
我 I, um...
现在吃早饭 因为我们两分钟后出发 Breakfast now because we're leaving in two minutes!
这样吧 我回头打给你 You know what? I'm gonna have to call you back.
你觉得钢琴课还上吗 So what do you think about piano lessons?
我支持你的所有决定 Oh, you know, um, I support whatever you decide.
别这样 Hey, come on.
我们一起做决定 We decide this stuff together.
没错 Right.
没错 Righty.
等等 Wait.
-喂 -我们走 - Hey! - Let's go.
有个把患者放门口就跑的 You've got a dump and run in the bay.
瞳孔对光反应迟钝 Pupil response is sluggish.
-又是吸毒过量 -这永远不会结束 - Another OD? - It's never-ending.
新阿姆斯特丹医院家庭计划
她是我们的病人 She's one of ours.
莎娜·戴维斯 Shayna Davis.
莎娜 莎娜 你在新阿姆斯特丹医院 Shayna? Shayna, you're at New Amsterdam.
-好疼 天哪 -哪里疼 - Oh, it hurts. Oh, God. - Okay, where does it hurt?
全身都疼 拜托 给我止疼吧 It hurts everywhere. Please, just make it stop.
你要说得再清楚点 I'm gonna need you to be more specific.
问夏普医生 她知道 Ask Dr. Sharpe. She knows.
我们需要更多资金 海伦 We need more money, Helen.
-我的临床试验就快开始了 -我们的试验 - My clinical trial's coming up-- - You mean our trial.
是的 你知道我的意思 Yes, you know what I mean.
-但启动资金 -我听到了 - But the startup costs are-- - I hear you.
我们不能卖质子束激光器 We're not selling the proton beam laser.
高科技和经济实惠很难两全 Cutting edge and cheap don't exactly mingle.
四千万能有起很大作用 $40 million can go a long way--
我们是三州地区唯一一家 We're the only hospital in the tristate area
有质子束治疗的医院 offering proton beam therapy.
那其他所有患者要去哪里治疗呢 Where are all those patients gonna get treatment?
所有六个患者吗 All six of them?
我们想为数百万人改变癌症疗法 We are trying to change cancer treatment for millions.
-还没到那步 -但我们可以成为第一人 - We're not there yet. - We could be.
只要有了资金 With that kind of money,
我们可以在几年内让质子束激光器过时 we can make the proton beam laser obsolete in a couple of years.
问题就在这 它现在不过时 That is the issue. It's not obsolete now.
我真的认为你该重新 I really think you should recon--
莎娜 Shayna?
看着我 Look at me.
海洛因吗 Heroin?
这是唯一管用的 It's the only thing that works.
疼痛只是... The pain is just--
我给你开的止痛药呢 What about the Percocet I prescribed?
几乎没用 It--it barely made a dent.
我上次化疗结束后 我 After my last round of chemo, I--
除非吃三倍药量 否则根本过不下去 I could barely get through the day unless I tripled up.
药什么时候吃完的 When did you run out?
距下次配药前两周 Two weeks before my next refill.
我想去街上弄点 但是 I--I tried to find some on the street, but...
海洛因更便宜 Heroin was cheaper.
我猜这是 这就是我生活的常态了 I guess this is-- this is my life now--
和一群瘾君子在达尔顿嗑嗨 getting high with a bunch of junkies at the Dalton.
疼痛管理也是癌症治疗的一部分 Pain management is a part of cancer treatment.
你无需感到丢人 明白吗 There is no shame in that. Do you hear me?
我可以在治疗癌症的同时让你舒服些 I can make you comfortable while we treat your tumor.
现在能给我点药吗 太疼了 Can I have something now? It just--it hurts so much.
我们得等毒理测试出来 We have to wait for your tox screen to come back
确保海洛因不会跟其他药产生反应 to make sure that the heroin wasn't laced with anything.
我撑不下去了 我... I'm not gonna make it. I'm...
你可以的 Yes, you will.
我保证你能 I'm gonna make sure of it.
塔万最近饮食有什么重大改变吗 Has Tawan had any significant changes in his diet recently?
没有 No.
他最近打疫苗了吗 And he's current on all his vaccinations?
嗯 打了 Yeah. Absolutely.
他的体重有突然下降吗 And he's had no dramatic weight loss?
不 他在此之前从没有健康问题 No, he's never had any health issues until now.
仿佛一夜之间什么都变了 It's like everything changed overnight.
对 他的成绩下降了 Yeah. His grades dropped off,
他的老师说他无法长时间集中注意力 his teacher said he can't concentrate on anything for very long.
还有颤抖 And the shivers.
-颤抖 -对 他 - The shivers? - Yeah, he, uh,
他出现了这种奇怪的肌肉抽搐 he started having these weird muscle twitches.
我们会找出你得了什么病 好吗 We're gonna figure out what's wrong, okay?
有可能是什么原因呢 Well, what could be causing this?
我觉得应该先做个核磁共振 Well, I think we should order an MRI
然后检查下血液 and get some blood tests--
你肯定有想法或猜测吧 You must have a theory or guess.
听上去 Well, it sounds like
这有点像早期多发性硬化症 it could be an early onset of MS.
多发性硬化症 MS?
等测试结果出来我们会知道的更多 We'll know more once the tests come back.
你的腿该去参加一场重要的约会了 Your leg is late for a very important date.
你三十分钟前就该去参加术前准备了 You were supposed to be in pre-op 30 minutes ago.
你怎么知道 Okay, how do you know?
因为你不回应任何术前准备的信息或电话 Because you didn't answer any of your pre-op texts or calls,
所以他们来骚扰我了 so then they harassed me.
好吧 有个心脏患者随时都可能来 Okay, well, I have a cardio pulling up any second,
所以我得改期我的手术 so I'm gonna have to reschedule my surgery.
不用 我来了 我能应付 Nope, I'm here. I can hold down the fort.
-无意冒犯 实际上 -没有但是 只有腿 - No offense, but actually-- - No buts, just legs--
那条腿 赶紧去做手术 that leg, up to surgery.
加布瑞拉·阿弗雷兹 34岁 怀孕28周 Gabriela Alvarez, 34, 28 weeks pregnant.
血压150/85 脉搏130 出汗 150/85, 130, diaphoretic.
用力时两侧呼吸减弱 Decreased respiration bilaterally with increased effort.
医生 医生 请救我孩子 Doctor, doctor, please save my baby.
好 送去创伤一室 Okay, let's get her to Trauma 1.
-雷诺兹呢 -他马上来 - Where's Reynolds? - He's on his way.
麦克斯 Max?
麦克斯 Max.
-麦克斯 -干什么 - Max. - What?
不如让我们来处理 Maybe you let us handle this one.
什么情况 What do we got?
右心负荷过重 Right heart strain.
左肺组织有损伤的迹象 Signs of tissue damage in the left lung.
杜克医生 这说明了什么 Dr. Duke, what does that indicate?
肺栓塞 Pulmonary embolism?
阿弗雷兹女士 我是雷诺兹医生 Ms. Alvarez? I'm Dr. Reynolds.
你的肺里有个血块 You have a clot in your lung.
所以你才会呼吸困难 That's why you're having trouble breathing.
我的孩子呢 What about my baby?
古德温医生 雷诺兹医生 Dr. Goodwin? Dr. Reynolds?
为什么你们不救我的宝宝 Why isn't anyone helping my baby?
-阿弗雷兹女士 -给我来点利多卡因 - Ms. Alvarez... - Prep me some lidocaine.
-胎儿在路上已死亡 -加布瑞拉 转向我 - The fetus died en route. - Gabriela, turn towards me.
怎么会这样 How?
左心室增生 The left ventricle was hyper plastic,
主动脉瓣狭窄 and there was stenosis in the aortic valve.
胎儿无法存活 Fetus wasn't viable.
我们不能同时失去加布瑞拉 We're not losing Gabriela too.
你会感到轻微的压迫感 You're gonna feel a slight pinch
还有一点灼烧感 and then some burning.
我需要一个中心静脉导管工具包 I'll need a central line kit.
tPA 组织型纤溶酶原激活剂 抗凝血药
准备注射tPA And prep an infusion of tPA.
利多卡因已注射 The lidocaine is in.
开始插入中心静脉导管 Starting central line.
注意 杜克 Pay attention, Duke.
大约250单位 About 250 CC there.
中心静脉导管已插入 Central line is in.
20单位 In 20.
tPA已注射 TPA is in.
氧饱和度为88% 而且在上升 O2 sats at 88% and rising.
我的宝宝还好吗 Is my baby okay?
加布瑞拉 Gabriela.
我要说的事 What I'm about to say is...
会让人无法接受 is gonna be impossible to hear.
我不 我不确定我听懂了 I'm not--I'm not sure I understand it.
-我做错了什么吗 -没有 - I do something wrong? - No.
没有 你没有做错任何事 No, you didn't do anything wrong.
只是遗传基因的运气不好 It's just that-- bad genetic luck.
宝宝的心脏发育不正常 The baby's heart never developed properly.
任何人都救不了她 and there is nothing that anyone could've done to save her.
死产的情况常有 Stillbirths happen--
只是人们都不愿承认 more than anyone ever wants to acknowledge.
你说的死产是什么意思 她没有 What do you mean stillbirth? She wasn't...
加比 Gabi,
我们必须引产 we have to induce labor
让宝宝出来 to get the baby out.
不 No.
不 No!
你是说我必须经历这一切 You mean I have to go through all of that
但是最后没有孩子吗 with no baby at the end?
这是最安全的方式 It's the safest way.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
需要我给谁打电话吗 Is there anyone that you'd like me to call?
家庭 朋友 伴侣 Family, friend, partner?
不用 没有别人了 No. There's no one else.
只有我们两个人 It was just gonna be the two of us.
只有我和苏 Just me and S...
没关系 It's okay.
你想说出她的名字 It's okay to say her name
就说吧 if you want to.
苏菲 Sofie.
你会陪着我吗 Will you stay with me?
你是在跟着我吗 Are you following me?
大概吧 Well, maybe.
就没有什么生命需要你拯救 Don't you have lives to save
或者什么手术需要你操刀吗 or some surgery to perform?
我要陪你去做你的手术 I'm escorting you to yours.
-为什么 -我不知道 - Why? - I don't know.
想着你可能需要一个朋友 Thought maybe you could use a friend.
谢谢你 Mm, thank you.
但其实 我有我妈妈 But actually, I have my mother.
珍妮知道你要做手术吗 Jeanie knows about your surgery?
她都不知道你的生日 She doesn't even know when your birthday is.
她知道月份 这就是进步 Well, she knows the month. That's progress.
这是我跟她和好的12个步骤之一 It's one of my 12 steps to make amends with her.
我不知道 I don't know.
她很关心我所以来了 所以 She cared enough to show up, so...
你好 你见过一个长得很像我的女人吗 Hi, uh, have you seen a woman who looks like me,
只是她马上会让你觉得自己很可怜 only immediately makes you feel bad about yourself?
没有 你在等人吗 No. You expecting someone?
-劳拉 -我是一个成年人 好吗 - Lauren... - I am a big girl, okay?
我不需要气球 或者大象公仔 I don't need balloons or a stuffed elephant
或我妈妈送我去做手术 or my mommy to send me off to surgery.
你确定吗 因为我可以 You sure? 'Cause I can just...
我没事 好吗 你去工作 I am fine, okay? Go do your job.
去 你去工作 Go! Go and do your job.
我没事 I'm fine.
社会服务部呼叫重症监护室 Social services to the ICU.
卡普尔医生 我刚拿到塔万的检查结果 Dr. Kapoor, I just got Tawan's test results back.
然后呢 And?
化验结果和核磁共振均显示不是多发性硬化 Nothing in the labs or MRI points to MS.
并不惊讶 I'm not surprised.
我写下了我的诊断 I wrote down my diagnosis.
谢耳德氏病吗 Schilder's disease?
你的问题问对了 You asked the right questions,
但你应该更仔细地聆听答案 but you should have listened more carefully to the answers.
塔万的行为 他的退缩 Tawan's behavior, his withdrawing--
所以他需要皮质类固醇 So he needs corticosteroids?
推断严谨 A rigorous course.
以后还是可以提出假设 In future, it's all right to offer a hypothesis,
但前提是信息齐备 but only if it's an informed one.
把它们赶走 Get them off me!
把它们赶走 它们在我脸上 Get them off! They're on my face!
塔万 你身上什么都没有 Tawan, there's nothing on you!
他觉得有蜘蛛在他身上爬 He thinks there are spiders crawling all over him.
氟哌啶醇 Haloperidol.
把它们赶走 把它们赶走 Get them off! Get them off!
-抓住他 -它们也在你身上 - Hold him still. - They're on you too!
把它们赶走 Get them off!
把它们赶 Get them...
幻觉不是谢耳德氏病的症状 Hallucinations aren't a symptom of Schilder's.
-是吗 -不是 - Are they? - No.
意识模糊 血压下降 LOC is shifting. BP dropping.
他稳定下来了 He's still.
夏普医生 你让莎娜·戴维斯出院了吗 Dr Sharpe, did you discharge Shayna Davis?
-没有 怎么了 -我觉得她跑了 - No, why? - I think she bolted.
-需要我叫保安吗 -不用 - Should I call security? - No.
不用 不用 我想我知道她在哪里 No, no. I think I know where she is.
我拿到了 Hey, I got it.
莎娜 Shayna.
-让我帮你 -你帮不了 - Let me help you. - You can't.
我只有这个办法... This is all I have--
要么嗑药要么疼死 我受不了那种疼 this or the pain, and I cannot take the pain.
-我没办法 -莎娜 - I--I can't. - Shayna...
你劝不了我 You're not gonna talk me out of it.
那好吧 Okay, all right.
你坚持这样的话 至少找个安全的地方 If you're gonna do this, then at least do it somewhere safe.
针头干净 作业卫生的地方 Somewhere with clean needles and clean works.
是吗 什么好地方 Oh, yeah? And what place is that?
我带你去 I'm gonna take you there.
好 加比 就这样 Okay, Gabi. This is it.
用力 Big push.
催产素间隔 十五分钟 Oxytocin interval. 15 minutes.
很好 Okay.
就这样 That's it.
每分钟两个单位剂量 2 Mu per minute dose.
你做得很好 You're doing great.
好了 做得好 加比 Okay. Great job, Gabi.
你做到了 You did it.
你做到了 加比 结束了 You did it, Gabi. It's over.
脉搏92 血压130/90 Pulse 92. BP 130/90.
太安静了 It's so quiet.
我知道 我知道 I know. I know.
加比 Gabi?
你想抱抱她吗 Do you wanna hold her?
我不行 I can't.
我知道 I know. I know.
我知道很难 I know it's hard,
但她还是你的女儿 but this is still your daughter.
她是苏菲 This is Sofie,
你爱了几个月的孩子 the baby you have loved for months.
抱抱她没关系的 And it's okay to hold her,
哪怕只是和她道别 even if it's just to say good-bye.
我做不到 I can't.
没事 It's okay.
没事的 It's okay.
加比 Gabi?
苏菲来了 Sofie's here.
这个是亲抱冰床 This is called a CuddleCot.
将早夭的宝宝冷冻的特殊摇篮 It's a special bassinet that keeps stillborn babies cool
让他们可以和父母在一起久一点 so they can stay with their parents a little longer
即使他们已经不在了 even after they're gone.
怎么可以... How can...
-这太... -病态了 - It's so... - Morbid?
这些设备能给你的东西 These devices can give you something
是其他都给不了的 that nothing else can--
时间 time.
和苏菲在一起的时间它给不了 That thing can't give me time with Sofie.
不是你想要的那种时间 Not the time you wish you had.
那谁都做不到 Nothing can give you that,
但它可以让你有时间悲恸 but it can give you time to grieve.
有的父母会留下孩子的一缕头发 You know, some parents keep a lock of hair
复刻脚印或拍下照片... or make a footprint or take pictures--
你可以做你原本想做的任何事 all the things that you may have wanted to do,
她离开了 and just because she's passed,
并不意味着你不能拥有那些回忆 doesn't mean that you can't have those memories,
那些瞬间 those moments.
大部分人在失去所爱的时候 I think when you lose someone that you love,
都会选择留下一些记忆 most of us would choose a few memories,
虽然痛苦 painful as they may be...
总好过一忘皆空 Over no memory at all.
你要和悲伤咨询师聊聊吗 Do you want to talk to a grief counselor?
不 No.
要我把她带走吗 Do you want me to take her away?
不要 No.
我只是需要点时间 I just want more time.
好 Yeah.
罗默医生 78... Dr. Romer, 78...
塔万没有任何反应 Tawan's not responding to anything.
血细胞量低 氧合状况差 His crit's low, oxygenation's poor--
我不知道怎么和他爸妈说 I don't know what to say to his parents.
抱歉 阿格尼丝 I'm sorry, Agnes.
这个病例不像我预期得那么简单 This case was not the piece of cake I was hoping it to be.
我们应该和他们一起聊聊他的病史 I think we should go over his medical history with them
再查一次 one more time.
也许漏掉了什么 Maybe we're missing something.
不行 没时间闲聊了 No. Time for talking is over.
我们要给他做脑活检 We need to perform the brain biopsy.
只有这样才能确诊 That's the only way to get his definitive diagnosis.
你不觉得给他脑部钻孔有点夸张吗 Don't you think drilling a hole into his head is a little drastic?
我们没时间了 阿格尼丝 We are running out of time, Agnes.
去订手术室吧 Go and book an OR,
找到钱伯斯医生后呼我 好吗 and page me when you find Dr. Chambers, okay?
髓内外观正常 IM typical in appearance.
骨折愈合情况标准 Fracture union normative.
无特殊情况... No attributes...
看起来布鲁姆医生的胫骨复位得不错 Dr. Bloom's tibia realignment looks good.
也就是她状况还行 So she's doing okay?
比还行还要行 I would say better than okay.
她的恢复过程应该会轻松些 Dr. Bloom should have a relatively easy recovery.
好极了 Great.
别告诉她我来了这里好吗 Can you keep my being here just between us?
我不希望布鲁姆医生知道 I don't want Dr. Bloom to know.
知道你关心她 That you care?
不是 她知道我关心她 No, no. She knows that I care.
她只是不喜欢我关心她 She just doesn't like it when I care.
雷诺兹医生 Dr. Reynolds?
杜克今天没来值班 Duke didn't show up for rounds today.
到处都找不到他 I can't find him anywhere.
我以为早过了这茬了 I thought we were past this.
门诊药房 4401 Outpatient pharmacy. 4401.
谢谢你 Thank you.
好 快到了 Okay, nearly there.
我来找欧玛 Um, I'm here to see Omar.
她和我一起的 She's with me.
谢谢 Thank you.
好 半小时后见 Yeah, just meet me in half an hour.
-你还好吗 -嗯 - You all right? - Mm.
他是谁 Who is that?
这是什么地方 What is this?
一个安全的消费场所 This is a safe consumption space.
人们来这里用药 People come here to use
免遭殴打或者强奸 without the threat of assault or rape,
而且有专业的医疗人员监控 and they're monitored by health care professionals
严防用药过量 to minimize the risk of overdose.
怎么做到合法的 How is this legal?
-它不合法 -海伦·夏普 - It's not. - Helen Sharpe--
生龙活虎哟 as I live and breathe.
欧玛 谢谢你做的这些 Omar, thank you so much for this.
帮你准备了个病床 We have a cot over here for you.
好的 过来 Okay. Come.
麻烦事多吗 Have you had much trouble?
有时吧 Oh, comes and goes,
但我们在躲警察方面已经做得很好了 and we've gotten better at evading the cops.
这是你的 This one's you.
你能给我看看你的用具吗 Can you, uh, can you show me your works?
没事的 你可以相信他 It okay. You can trust him.
谢谢 Thank you.
如果你允许的话 And if you'll allow me?
谢谢 Thank--thank you.
安全起见 我要对你的东西进行芬太尼测试 I need to test your product for Fentanyl to be safe.
看来你还没有完全接受我们工作的价值 I see you've not fully embraced the value of what we do here.
我相信你们的意图是好的 I believe your intentions are good.
对 但不接受我们的手段 Yeah, but not our methods.
如果人们能做出正确的决断 If people can start making good decisions here,
那我们就算帮上忙了 then we're helping.
你可以开始了 You're good to go.
有人呼叫我 出什么事了 I got a page. What happened?
六号病房 Room six.
别带走她 Don't take her away!
-他只是要在转移她 -怎么了 为什么 - He's just moving her. - What? Why?
又有患者来了 We have another delivery coming in,
我们必须把阿弗雷兹女士挪到产后恢护理室 and we have to move Ms. Alvarez to post-partum.
你说我能待在这里的 You said I could have more time.
不行 她得待在这里 No, she gets to stay.
但是 古德温医生 But Dr. Goodwin--
不行 出去 现在 No. Out, now.
我们还得清理... We still have to clean--
她如果让你们做 就可以做 You will if she asks you to.
如果不让 就不能 If not, you won't.
她可以使用医院的一切资源 She can use every resource in this hospital
或者什么都不用 或者介于两者之间 or none of them or anywhere in between.
她是我的病人 She is my patient,
她必须和她女儿待在这个房间 and she gets to stay in this room with her daughter
想待多久待多久 as long as she wants.
-明白了吗 -明白 - Is that clear? - Yeah.
我是认真的 加比 I--I mean it, Gabi.
只要你需要 不管几天还是几周 As long as you need-- days, weeks.
这个房间都是你的 This room is yours.
那我怎么跟产科的人说 So what do I tell the OB's?
不能打扰加布瑞拉·阿弗雷兹 That Gabriela Alvarez is not to be disturbed,
如果谁有意见 and if anyone has a problem with that,
可以来找我谈 they can come talk to me,
找我也非常容易 因为我就在这里 which'll be very easy because I'll be right here.
杜克 Duke?
杜克 Duke.
怎么 你优秀到不用去巡房了吗 What, you too good to go on rounds now?
-巡房 -对 巡房 - Rounds? - Yeah, rounds.
你到底去哪了 Where the hell have you been?
我当时是...我本想帮忙 I was trying to-- I wanted to help,
但我好像把事情弄得更糟了 but I--I think--I think I just made things worse.
过来 你在说什么 Hey, hey, come here. What are you talking about?
出什么事了 What happened?
我们在急诊室时 When we were in the ED,
我当时不知道阿弗雷兹女士的孩子活不下来 I didn't know Ms. Alvarez's baby wasn't viable.
我看她那么害怕 那么担心 And when I saw her so-- so scared and worried,
别告诉我你真的说出那话了 You didn't.
我告诉她我们有全国最好的医生 I told her we had the best doctors in the country...
她的孩子会没事的 and that her baby would be fine.
永远不要承诺病人一切都会好起来的 Never promise a patient everything will be fine
因为你永远不知道会发生什么 because you never know what might happen.
我知道 我知道 I know. I know.
-我只是 -别再说「我只是」了 - I just-- - No more "I just," man.
行了 进医院第一天就说过了 Come on, this is day one stuff.
好吗 永远不要承诺 All right? You never promise.
但你总说病人需要希望 But you always say patients need hope.
给他们希望 Give them hope.
没有希望 他们就不会好起来 Without it, they don't get better.
-没错 他们不会 -所以怎么办 - That's right. They don't. - So which is it?
如果不告诉别人我们会帮忙 How am I supposed to give someone hope
怎么给别人希望呢 without telling them that we're going to help?
就陪在他们身边 好吗 Just be there for them, all right?
当他们从手术中醒来 When they're waking up from surgery,
当他们遇到... when they're going under--
你甚至什么都不必说 you don't even have to say anything.
待在那里就好 Just be there.
这样就会起很大作用 It makes all the difference.
感觉怎么样 How we feeling?
好多了 Better.
但这持续不了多久 But it never lasts.
你现在愿意回医院了吗 Will you come back to the hospital now?
如果你一年前告诉我 If you told me a year ago
我会嗑海洛因 that I'd be jonesing for heroin
来缓解罕见癌症引起的疼痛 to manage the pain from a rare form of cancer,
我会觉得你疯了 I'd have thought you were crazy.
我应该给你打电话的 I should-- I should've called you.
我应该叫你来帮我的 I should've asked for help.
你现在也可以 You still can.
维贾伊 Vijay.
埃拉怎么样 So how is Ella?
-埃拉 -对 埃拉 - Ella? - Yes, Ella--
在班得威工作 works in Pain de Vie,
怀着我未来的小孙子 is carrying my potential grandchild.
我知道埃拉是谁 I am aware of who Ella is,
你知道我不能告诉你这件事 and you know that I can't talk to you about this.
所以她是病人 So she is a patient.
我看起来像是要告诉你什么事吗 Do I look like I'm gonna tell you anything?
我就是不明白 I just don't understand.
我想说的是... What I'm trying to tell over here is...
好了 我懂 Okay, I understand.
我懂 我懂 维贾伊 我懂了 I know, I know. Vijay, I get it.
你感到很无助 很紧张 You're feeling helpless. You're feeling stressed.
我们都很紧张 老天 我超紧张 We're all stressed. Hell, I'm stressed.
紧张埃拉吗 Stressed about Ella?
不 不是埃拉 No, not about Ella.
我做了一件蠢事 I did something stupid.
我联系了一个机构打算再领养一个小孩 I contacted an agency about adopting another child,
现在他们有一个匹配的小孩给我 and now they have a baby for me,
我非常想要这个小孩 and I really, really want this baby.
但我还没把这事告诉马丁 But I haven't told Martin about it yet.
只字未提吗 About any of it?
我知道 这样不好 I know. Ooh, this is bad.
这样很不好 This is super bad.
我... I, um...
我发誓 我今晚就告诉他 I swear. I'm gonna tell him tonight.
领养 Adoption.
对 就是领养的事 Yes, about the adoption.
不 不 No, no, no.
我的病人 他是领养的小孩 My patient--he was adopted.
我的天 Oh, my God.
现在准备做颅骨穿孔术 And now for the burr hole incision.
停下 Stop.
塔万是领养的 Tawan was adopted.
麻疹病毒导致让他亚急性硬化性全脑炎 He has SSPE from the measles virus.
你确定吗 Are you sure?
我们已经证实塔万血液中有 We have confirmed a high level of measles antibodies
高水平的麻疹抗体 in Tawan's bloodstream.
病毒侵入了他的大脑 The virus has imbedded itself in his brain.
但我们给他打过疫苗 But we vaccinated him.
塔万来美国的时候三岁了 Tawan was three years old when he came to the U.S.
他应该是在泰国 He must've been exposed
住孤儿院的时候染上的 while living in the orphanage in Thailand.
那可是七年前 That was seven years ago.
亚急性硬化性全脑炎的潜伏期可以长达十年 SSPE can lie dormant for up to ten years,
可一旦发作 but once it becomes active,
病情会经历四个阶段 it progresses through four stages.
塔万处于第三阶段 Tawan is in stage three.
那 那意味着什么 Well--well, what does that mean?
我们会尽一切努力帮助塔万和病毒作斗争 We will do everything we can to help Tawan fight the virus.
但是 But?
目前为止在我见过的这类病例里 Every case of SSPE I've seen has resulted in--
没有孩子能幸免 in the child's death.
介意我坐过来吗 Mind if I join you?
普罗科特医生让我过来给加布瑞拉做咨询 Dr. Proctor asked me to come by and do a consult for Gabriela.
她想一个人待着 She wants to be left alone.
没错 悲恸的人都说想要单独待着 Yes, that is what grieving people say they want,
可那并不是他们所需要的 but it is not always what they need.
听上去加布瑞拉需要帮助 来和女儿告别 Sounds like Gabriela needs help saying goodbye to her daughter.
她还没准备好告别 She's not ready to say goodbye.
如果她准备好了 If she does,
那她的女儿就永远回不来了 then her daughter will be gone forever.
我们还在讨论加布瑞拉吗 We still talking about Gabriela here?
-别这样 -我可什么都没做 - Don't do that. - Hey, I'm not doing anything.
我在帮你 好吗 I'm your guy, okay?
从你回来那天起 Since the day you came back,
我就一直在为你四处调解 I've been running interference for you.
告诉大家给麦克斯留点空间 Telling people to give Max his space--
别把他们的需求强加给你 you know, not to project their needs onto you,
等你准备好了 就会敞开心扉 that you'll open up when you're ready.
我不想敞开心扉 I don't want to open up.
是我知道 我能感觉到 Yeah, I know. I can see that.
我们大家都能 We can all see that,
但也只有那样 你才会变好 but that's the only way that you get better.
那我不想变好 Then I don't want to get better.
如果我变好了 就只能让她走 If I get better, then I have to let her go.
我不想 I don't want to.
海伦 Helen.
你一天都去哪儿了 Where have you been all day?
别的地方开会 怎么了 Meetings off-site. Why?
我们还没有决定好 We still haven't decided
要怎么处理那个质子束发生器 what we're doing to do about the proton beam laser.
我们已经决定了 Yes, we did,
我不打算再重新讨论了 and I'm not having this conversation again.
只要我们都还是这个科室的联合主任 As long as we are co-chairs of this department,
我们就都对这件事有话语权 we both have a say on its direction.
抱歉 你是海伦·夏普医生吗 Excuse me. Are you Dr. Helen Sharpe?
我是 Yes.
请把双手放在背后 Please place your hands behind your back.
等等 这是怎么了 Wait, what's this all about?
你有权保持沉默 You have the right to remain silent.
但你所说的每一句话 Anything you say can and will be used against you
都将作为呈堂证供 in a court of law.
你有权请律师 You have the right to an attorney.
如果你无法负担 法庭将为你指派一名 If you cannot afford one, one will be assigned to you.
如果你选择回答我们的问题 If you choose to answer our questions,
你有权在任何时候停止 you have the right to stop at any time.
你理解这些权利了吗 Do you understand these rights?
-谢谢你把我弄出来 -要不然呢 - Thanks for the rescue. - What was I going to do?
让你因为某个无端的指控在监狱里腐烂吗 Let you rot in jail on some trumped-up charges?
别担心 我们把一切都搞定了 Don't worry. We took care of everything.
我们 We?
我希望你休息好了 Well, I hope you're well-rested
因为我显然没有 because I certainly am not.
她让那些人撤销指控了 She got the charges dropped.
我还得把消息压住 And I kept it out of the press.
你知道今晚我要打多少求人帮忙的电话吗 Do you know how many favors I had to call in tonight?
他们有你在毒窟里的照片 They have photos of you in a heroin den.
那是药物安全注射点 It's a safe consumption space.
正因如此 我的病人在新阿姆斯特丹医院 And because of it, my patient is in New Amsterdam
而不是横尸街头 instead of dead on the street.
我不会为此道歉的 I am not gonna apologize for that.
我不在意你是不是道歉 I don't care if you apologize,
但事情总有后果 but there will be consequences for this.
什么后果 What consequences?
董事会将在早上决定对你的处理 The board will discuss your fate in the morning.
我很抱歉 海伦 I'm so sorry, Helen.
我以为她是跟我们一边的 I thought she was on our side.
-找到什么了吗 -还没 - Anything? - Not yet.
我见到太多发展中国家的孩子 I've seen so many children die in developing countries
死于可预防的疾病了 from preventable diseases because
因为父母弄不到疫苗或是 parents did not have access to vaccines or--
不知道疫苗的重要性 or know they were important or--
或是压根负担不起 or couldn't afford them.
但是这儿 But here?
在这个国家里 In this country,
这样的经济和教育水平 with all its wealth and education
有那么多的疫苗 and abundance of vaccines...
卡普尔医生 Dr. Kapoor?
-有一种很新的治疗方法 -相当新 - There's a new treatment? - Very new.
随着很多不打疫苗的孩子长大 With a lot of anti-vaxxer kids coming of age,
亚急性硬化性全脑炎变得常见 SSPE is becoming more common.
迫使医生们尝试全新的未经测试的疗法 It's forcing doctors to try new, untested treatments.
这种方法的疗效很有限 This one is seeing a very limited success.
结合了抗病毒和免疫调节的药物 It's a combination of antiviral and immunomodulatory drugs.
但你们要理解 亚急性硬化性全脑炎无法痊愈 You need to understand. SSPE has no cure.
如果这种疗法起效了 If this treatment works,
塔万就得和这些药物 Tawan will have to stay on these medications
相伴余生 for the rest of his life.
只要有用 我就很开心了 I'm just happy it might work.
会有用的 It will work.
我们什么时候开始 When can we start?
这个要问你们的医生 You will have to ask your doctor.
她才是那个发现的人 She's the one who discovered it.
我们可以现在就开始 We can start right away.
二号手术室需要静脉注射护士 Any available IV nurse to OR two.
看看是谁最后才来了 Look who decided to finally show up.
你就不能给我买点气球吗 Couldn't even be bothered to bring me any balloons
或者毛绒小象也行啊 or a stuffed elephant, could you?
我以为你不想看到我在这儿晃悠 Thought you didn't want me hanging around?
我当然希望看见你晃悠 Of course I want you hanging around.
你简直就像我最好的朋友 You're like my best friend.
你注射了多少吗啡 How much morphine you on?
但是 这就是我想让你为我做的 But hey, this is what I need you to do for me, okay?
我想让你下楼去礼品店 I need you to go down to the gift shop
把气球全买来 and buy all the balloons
那样所有的护士都会觉得大家在意我 so all the nurses think that people care about me.
拜托 大家本来就很在意你 Come on. People care about you.
不是 才不是 No. That is not true.
大家并不在意我 People do not care about me.
他们只是容忍我 People tolerate me.
他们会因为我离开房间而开心 People are glad when I leave a room.
我不知道 我不知道是怎么回事 I don't know. I don't know what it is.
大概是我的原因吧 I guess it's just me.
好了 首先 停下这一切 Okay, just, uh-- first of all, stop that.
而且如果我不在意你的话 And if I didn't care about you,
为什么会给你带来这个 why would I bring you this?
-彼得·鲁格牛排馆 -没错 - Peter Luger's? - Bam!
小时候我爸带我去过彼得·鲁格牛排馆 My dad used to take me to Peter Luger's when I was a kid.
许愿精灵格外灵验的时候 When Jeanie was being extra Jeanie.
你还记得 You remembered.
是的 Yeah.
现在你必须要好起来 So now you've got to get better.
老天 真好吃 Oh, my God. Yes.
你会给我留点 对吧 You're gonna save some for me, right?
当然 Sure.
太好吃了 So good.
-我必须要离开了吗 -不 - Do I have to go? - No.
我承诺过的 记得吗 I promised. Remember?
我只是要下班回家了 I'm just heading home for the night,
但是这里的所有人都知道不会来打搅你 but everyone here knows you're not to be disturbed.
我是疯了吗 Am I crazy?
把她这样留在身边 即便她已经 Keeping her close like this even though she...
这样 这样健康吗 Is it--is it healthy?
这样没问题吗 Is it okay?
没事的 It's okay.
这完全正常 It's more than okay.
如果你想 可以抱抱她 You can hold her if you want.
我想抱她 I want to,
但是我的大脑不停地说 but my head keeps telling me
那样会让情况更糟 that it'll make it worse,
毕竟 那并非真正是她 you know, that that's not really her.
她已经死了 She's gone.
而我的心又告诉我 那就是我的苏菲 And then my heart tells me that's my Sofie.
是我的宝宝 That's my baby.
你会怎么做 What would you do?
只有你最重要 All that matters here is you.
我感觉自己有毛病 I feel like I'm sick.
我感觉自己不正常了 I feel like I'm not normal.
拜托了 帮帮我 Please, just help me.
我失去了一个人 I--I lost someone...
在几个月以前 a few months ago, and it-
那无法和你正在经历的相比 但是 it can't, uh, compare to what you're going through, but, uh...
我会和她说话 I--I talk to her...
一直在和她说话 All the time.
是完整的对话 I mean, full-on conversations.
我知道人们会说那样太疯狂了 And I--I know that people would say that's crazy,
那样做对我的心理不健康 that it's not healthy, but I--
但是我又该怎么做呢 what am I supposed to do?
她 她死了 She--she, uh, died
生下我们的女儿之后就死了 right after our daughter was born.
她本会非常享受和女儿在一起的每一秒 She would've loved every second of it.
但是她没有 没机会感受到 But she doesn't-- she doesn't get to.
她一刻都没能和女儿相处 She didn't get any of it.
而我失去了她 And I don't get her,
而且 and neither does--
而且卢娜也失去了她 neither does Luna.
我尝试去保住她的性命 So I-- I tried keeping her alive.
让她成为这些回忆的一部分 You know, to make her a part of these memories.
我一点都不在乎 这样是否健康 And I don't... I really don't care if it's healthy.
我必须要这样做不可 It's just what I have to do, you know?
才能活下去 To keep going.
加比 我对你的担忧是 My worry for you, Gabi, is that...
如果你从未曾对苏菲说过你好 you will never say goodbye to Sofie
那你永远也无法对她告别 if you never say hello.
伊格内修斯·弗罗姆医生 行为健康部门主任
嘿 Hey.
猜猜我刚和谁聊了聊 Guess who I talked to a little while ago?
我 我不知道 谁 I--I don't know. Who?
孩子们还好吗 The kids okay?
我们的孩子吗 我们的孩子很好 Our kids? Yeah, our kids are fine.
似乎另外一个孩子那里出了点问题 It seems that there's an issue with another kid--
根据罗兹所说 一个我们将要领养的婴儿 a baby that, according to Roz, we're adopting?
亲爱的 你听我解释 Babe, I can explain--
是啊 你今晚回家的话就能解释了 Yeah, you could if you were coming home tonight.
伊吉 我现在都不想看见你 Iggy, I can't even look at you right now.
-马丁 -别说了 - Martin. - No, don't.
请进 Yes?
埃拉 Ella.
我最近想了很多 I've been thinking a lot about everything,
我想我终于 and I think I finally--I--
我想我知道自己真正要的是什么了 I think I figured out what I really want.
我 I'm...
我要留下宝宝 I'm keeping the baby.
真的吗 Really?
是的 真的 Yeah, really.
♪ Are you lonely? ♪
谢谢你 Thank you.
♪ You're never alone ♪
谢谢你 Thank you.
BGM: A Bridge by Inara George
♪ Are you counting every breath? ♪
♪ Aching for some time ♪
♪ Just a little more time ♪
♪ Are you lonely? ♪
♪ Can you hear me? ♪
♪ I'm talking out loud ♪
♪ Trying to understand ♪
♪ Just how it is you feel ♪
♪ But I don't wanna say too much ♪
♪ I don't wanna say too much ♪
♪ I just wanna be here ♪
♪ Let's build a bridge ♪
♪ From your window to mine ♪
♪ String a can to a can ♪
♪ You could call me anytime ♪
♪ Let's make a river ♪
♪ And take it down to the sea ♪
♪ Let's build a bridge ♪
♪ From your window to me ♪
♪ A wish for you ♪
♪ It's just a simple thing ♪
♪ Let's build a bridge ♪
♪ From your window to mine ♪
♪ String a can to a can ♪
♪ I could call you anytime ♪
♪ Let's make a river ♪
♪ And take it down to the sea ♪
就此告别吧 This is goodbye.
♪ Let's build a bridge ♪
♪ From your window to me ♪