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她对移植的心脏有排异反应 She's rejecting her heart transplant.
所以大学医院把她塞进了豪华车 So University stuffed her in a limo--
-开过整个城市 -丢在了我们的门前 - Drove across town-- - And dropped her at our doorstep.
真是让人内心感到温暖充实啊 对吧 Just makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside, doesn't it?
哈里斯女士 Ms. Harris?
我是麦克斯·古德温 医疗主任 I'm Max Goodwin, the Medical Director.
你的医生有没有告诉你 Did your doctors tell you why
为什么他们把你转院到新阿姆斯特丹 they were transferring you to New Amsterdam?
他们说你们这里设备更齐全 能更好地照顾我 They said you'd be better equipped to handle my needs.
有什么问题吗 Is something wrong?
他们骗了你 Uh, they lied to you.
你的身体对新心脏产生了排异反应 Your body is rejecting your new heart.
他们一意识到自己无能为力后 And once they realized there was nothing more they could do,
就把你转院到了这里 they transferred you here.
他们为什么要这么做 Why would they... do that?
保持他们医院的低死亡率 To keep their mortality rates low.
那么 So...
他们是送我来这死吗 they sent me... here to die?
卡伦·布兰特利 我能借用你一会儿吗 Karen Brantley, can I borrow you for a second?
麦克斯 你能加入真是太好了 Max, so glad you could join us.
我们说好了八点半整 We said 8:30 sharp.
我本可以提醒你的助手 I would've reminded your assistant,
但你还是没有助手 but you still don't have one.
这在我的待办事项上呢 It's on my to-do list.
奥奇 这位是我们医院超忙的医疗主任 Ozzie, this is our hospital's very busy Medical Director...
-你好 -麦克斯·古德温 - Hi. - Max Goodwin.
幸会 Pleasure.
奥奇·科布已承诺给我们五百万 Ozzie Cobb has pledged $5 million...
-五百万 -投入下个季度 - 5. - Over the next quarter.
我能说什么 What can I say?
-我喜欢施舍 -谢谢 - I love to give. - Thank you.
能先失陪一下吗 这边 跟我来 Would you excuse us? This way--just come with me.
你知道 You do realize
我是想给你的医院拉经费吧 I'm trying to fund your hospital here.
很好 大学医院刚把一个病人 Yeah, well, University just dumped a patient
丢在我们的门口 她大概还有几天 on our doorstep-- days, if not hours,
甚至只剩几小时可以活 懂吗 before she's expected to die. All right?
你想知道为什么吗 因为他们想要数据好看 You wanna know why? Because they're cooking their books, all right?
她不会死在他们的医院 She's not gonna die on their watch,
而会死在我们这里 而且不止她一人 she's gonna die on ours, and she is not the only one.
还有过其他病人 There have been others.
当然还有其他病人 麦克斯 Of course there's been others, Max.
每个医院都会丢弃患者 新阿姆斯特丹也一样 Every hospital dumps patients. Even New Amsterdam.
我回来了 抱歉抱歉 Hello! Sorry about that.
医 院 革 命 第二季 第十三集
BGM: Symphony No. 5 by Ludwig van Beethoven, Chicago Symphony Orchestra
对 我听着呢 格拉蒂斯 显然 Yes, I'm listening, Gladys, obviously.
是萨利姆 他在弹钢琴 你就 It's Saleem, he's on the piano. Just--
爸爸 你应该听我弹琴 Dad, you're supposed to be listening to me.
知道吗 等等 好吧 You know what? Wait-- Oh, okay, okay.
不行 如果他已经是51/50了 那不行 No, if he's already 51/50, then no, no can do.
绝对不行 That is a big no no.
-爸爸 -在听呢 宝贝 - Dad! - Yes, honey,
你弹得很好 继续努力 you sound amazing. Keep going, all right?
不 我就是这个意思 No, that's what I'm saying.
萨利姆 宝贝 Saleem, babe, hey!
我们稍微弹轻点 怎么样 Yeah, let's try a little sotto voce, all right?
这是头疼 是很复杂的症状 It is a headache and it's a compliance issue.
-早啊 埃拉酱 -早上好 - Namaste, Ella-ji. - Good morning.
我还在想你什么时候会醒 I was wondering if you would ever wake up.
真丰盛啊 This is a lot of stuff.
我只...我只需要玉米片 I just--I need just cornflakes.
不不 不吃盒装麦片了 在这不行 No, no, no boxed cereal. Not in this house.
你和宝宝只能吃新鲜 Only fresh, healthy food for you
健康的食物 and the baby.
带馅儿印度饼 Stuffed parathas,
加一点奶冻 a little bit of curd.
再来点 A little more.
刚好 Yes.
你昨晚回来得很晚 You came home rather late last night.
只是九点 It was 9:00.
大概九点零七 9:07, give or take.
你不需要等我 You don't have to wait up for me.
或者你早点回来 我就不用等了 Or if you came home earlier, I wouldn't have to.
关于洗盘子 Now, about the dirty dishes.
-我得去工作了 -这么快 - I have to go to work. - Already?
-对 抱歉 -好吧 - Yeah, sorry. - Okay.
埃拉 等等 Ella, wait a minute.
-别忘了这个 -这是什么 - Don't forget this. - What's in here?
你的午饭 刚做好的印度餐 Your lunch. Freshly made Indian food.
你一定得尝尝我的咖喱角 Wait until you try my special samosas.
谢谢 Thank you.
走好 埃拉酱 Namaste, Ella-ji.
杜瓦蒂医生 Dr. Duarte.
我没想到你这么快就联系我了 I didn't expect to hear from you so soon.
旧金山怎么样 How's San Francisco?
你很快就会知道了 弗洛伊德 You'll be finding out soon enough, Floyd.
我们想正式聘请你为 We'd like to officially offer you the position
芳草地医院心胸外科的 as new Chair of Cardiothoracic Surgery
新主任 at Yerba Buena Hospital.
这真是... That's...
-好消息 我希望是 -嗯 我... - Great news, I hope. - Uh, yeah, I, uh--
确实是 但在我答应前 It is. Uh, but before I say yes,
我要先在这边处理些事情 I'd like to square some things up here.
-能给我几天时间吗 -当然 几天 - Can I have a few days? - Sure. A few days.
我们下回聊 We'll talk soon.
-麦克斯 -你知不知道 - Max! - Did you know that
过去六个月里新阿姆斯特丹医院 New Amsterdam has dumped over 30 patients
把三十多位患者甩给了市政临终关怀系统 into the municipal hospice system in the last six months?
-那么多 -非常多 仅六个月内 - Wow, that's a lot. - Very. In six months.
何止是多 简直惊人 That's not just a lot. It's appalling.
完全同意 太恶劣了 Completely agree. That's absolutely horrific.
但我需要你切换思路一分钟 But I'm gonna need you to switch gears for just a minute.
-好 我要怎么帮忙 -你不能批准 - Yeah, how can I help? - I need you to not approve
我的近距离放射治疗装置 my brachytherapy device.
我该问要怎么不帮忙 How can I not help?
-没错 -我为什么这么做 - Exactly. - Why would I do that?
因为卡斯特罗没批准 Because Castro didn't approve it.
请求不该上报到你这里 The request never should've gotten up to you.
我似乎记得我很坦诚地 I seem to remember having very candid conversation
说过会支持你 about me having your back.
你可以支持我 但这就好像 You can have my back, but this just looks like
我越过了卡斯特罗 I went over Castro's head.
它会对患者有益吗 Is it going to help out patients?
-会啊 -它在预算范围内吗 - I mean, yes. - Is it within budget?
-是的 -它会让我们医院更好吗 - Yes-- - Will it make our hospital better?
当然 但为了维持我和卡斯特罗 Of course. But in order to keep the peace
之间的和平 我不能让你... between Castro and myself, I can't have you...
偏袒我 favoring me.
我确实偏袒你 I do favor you.
好吧 但你要保密 All right, well, keep that to yourself.
告诉卡斯特罗我在为我们的患者着想 Just tell Castro that I'm favoring our patients.
-麦克斯 不 -如果她有异议 - Max, no-- - And if she has a problem with that,
让她来找我 just tell her to come talk to me.
你要去哪 Where are you going?
感谢您选择贝尔花园疗养院 Thank you for choosing Bell Gardens Hospice.
-打扰了 你好 -还有三十分钟 - Excuse me, hi. - Visiting's not for
-才到探视时间 -不 我不是来探视的 - another 30 minutes. - No, I'm not visiting.
哦 好吧 办入院在大厅尽头 Oh, okay. Intake's down the hall.
我也不是来送人的 I'm not here to drop off either.
我其实...借过...是来接人的 I'm actually--excuse me-- here to pick up.
不...不要意思 你说什么 I--I'm sorry, what?
抱歉 因为你们 Uh, well, I'm sorry because
误收了新阿姆斯特丹医院的一些患者 you've gotten some of New Amsterdam's patients by mistake
我是来接他们回去的 and I'm here to take them back.
哪...哪些患者 W-Which patients?
所有这些 All of them.
新阿姆斯特丹医院一直在放弃 New Amsterdam has been failing our patients
垂死的患者 at the end of their lives.
我们照顾他们 We care for them right up until
直到生命尾声 their last days and then,
然后当治愈不再是种选择时 when curing them is no longer an option,
我们推卸责任 we pass the buck.
把他们释放到不堪重负的系统 We turn them loose on overburdened systems--
疗养院 养老院 毫无准备的家庭 hospice, nursing homes, unprepared families.
这不是临终关怀该有的样子 This is not what End-of-Life care should look like.
所以今天我们要做出改变 So we're gonna change that today.
欢迎...当心... Welcome--excuse me--
来到新阿姆斯特丹临终关怀区 to the New Amsterdam Palliative Care Unit.
在我的走廊里 In my hallway?
我在想办法 Working on that.
每位医生接管一位患者 Every doctor is gonna get a patient
你们将陪伴他们直至生命终点 and they'll be with you till the end.
那我们真正的患者呢 What about our actual patients?
暂时只能靠你们的住院医师和主治医师了 Just rely on your residents and your attendings for now.
我要你们今天把全部精力放在这 I want your full attention here today.
可如果对他们保守治疗 要用什么药 But if they're palliative, what medicine are we offering?
不用药 重点是...关怀 懂吗 No medicine. This is about, uh, care, okay?
我希望你们和他们对话 I want you to talk to them,
了解他们需要什么 确保他们得到 figure out what they need and make sure they get it.
开销呢 谁来支付 我们吗 What about cost? Who is covering this? Are we?
我不知道 但我会解决的 I don't know, but I'm gonna figure that out.
这是给你的 对 This is for you. Yup.
所以我们...能做任何事 So we--we can do anything?
任何事 只要让他们走得安详 Anything. Just give them a good death.
好吗 Okay?
彼得 Peter.
彼得 你好 你好 Peter, hi. Hi.
我是弗罗姆医生 I'm Dr. Frome.
我是伊格内修斯 伊吉 I'm, uh, Ignatius, Iggy.
伊吉医生 伊医生 Dr. Iggy. Driggy.
任意组合都可以 Any combination of that will do.
我是来照顾你的 好吗 I'm here to take care of you, okay?
我是卡普尔医生 今天由我负责照顾你 I'm Dr. Kapoor, and I'll be taking care of you today.
我看到你患硬皮病已经好几年了 I see you have had Scleroderma for several years,
但两个月前疾病开始引起器官衰竭 but two months ago it started causing organ failure.
对 我几天之内就会死 Yes. I'll be dead in a few days.
梅蕾迪思博士 Dr. Meredith?
叫齐克就好 Zeke's fine.
我是夏普医生 I'm Dr. Sharpe.
我能做些什么好让你舒服一点 What can I do to make you more comfortable?
舒服一点 我快死了 More comfortable? I'm dying.
阿黛尔·艾森鲍姆 Adele Eisenbaum?
我是麦克斯 我来舒缓你的心情 I'm Max and, uh, I'm here to make you comfortable.
我得先降低你的期待值 I'd lower your expectations.
好吧 Okay.
我有一个绝妙的想法 I do have a wonderful idea.
我们给你办个生前守灵 We will give you a living wake.
守灵 A wake?
让你的家人和亲属 To allow your family and relatives
聚集在一起 在你生前 to gather and celebrate your life
和他们一起庆祝你还活着 while you're still there to celebrate it with them.
不要 Nope.
「不要」 "Nope"?
除非我死了 否则我不办 I'll have a living wake over my dead body.
我母亲在大学医院里住院十几年 My mother has been a patient at University for over a decade.
我本来还打算在那待产 I was gonna have my baby there.
但他们把她赶出去了 就像... And they just threw her out, like, like--
你必须做点什么 You have to do something.
你得救她 You have to save her.
不 不 希普利夫人 我做不到 No, no, Mrs. Shipley, I can't do that, all right?
没人能做到 No one can do that.
晚期白血病会伴随一系列的身体疾病 Late stage leukemia comes with a host of physical ailments
过渡过程非常不容易 that can make the transitioning process...challenging.
你能告诉我 我到底在向什么过渡吗 And where exactly am I transitioning to, would you say?
BGM: Clair De Lune by Claude Debussy
我想这因人而异 Well, I suppose that depends.
你信仰什么 What do you believe in?
数字 Numbers.
所以你的博士学位是数学 Oh, so your doctorate is in mathematics?
我当了25年的教授 I was a professor for 25 years.
是什么让你选择了数学 What drew you to math?
必然性 The certainty.
但这... But this...
我现在面对的是无法理解的 what I'm facing now is... incomprehensible.
是未知的 It's unknowable.
我想死亡不能像解方程一样 I guess death can't be solved like an equation.
但死亡是必然的 And yet, death is a certainty.
你真的想帮我吗 You really wanna help me?
解决它 Solve that.
我 I...
没关系 你说什么 It's okay. What--what is it?
我 I...
我想见我父亲 I want to see my father.
你父亲 好 Your father? Okay.
-对 -这我可以做到 - Yeah. - Okay, I can do that.
我可以安排 I can arrange that.
他在市里吗 Is he in the city?
不知道 Don't know.
没说过 Haven't spoken...
12年没说过话 Haven't spoken... in 12 years.
好吧 Okay.
对已经发生的事没有可以辩解的地方 好吗 There's no excuse for what happened, all right?
但你母亲在这里 我们会尽最大努力 But your mother's here now, and we're gonna do our best
确保她没有痛苦 好吗 to make sure she's comfortable, okay?
你要做的不止是让她没有痛苦 You need to do more than make sure she's comfortable.
你得让她好起来 You need to make sure she's better.
希普利夫人 Mrs. Shipley--
你和大学医院一样坏 You're just as bad as University.
你只是放弃了她 You're just giving up on her.
如果你救不了她 这里又有什么用 What is this place for if you can't save--
布鲁姆 麻烦过来帮忙 Uh, Bloom, little help here, please.
-蕾吉娜 -她的羊水破了 - Regina? - Her water broke.
是不是太早了 Is it too soon?
-我才34周 -不 不 没事 - I'm only 34 weeks. - No, no, no, it's okay.
你的状态很好 You're in a safe window.
只是早产 好吗 This is, uh, your preterm, okay?
我会没事的 妈妈 I'm gonna be fine, Mom.
我其实正希望今天能接生一个小孩呢 I was actually hoping I'd get to deliver a baby today.
我真的 Am I...
要见到我的外孙了吗 really going to see my grandchild?
四期恶性腺瘤 Stage 4 Adenocarcinoma.
我猜他们关于吸烟的说法是对的 Guess they were right about the smoking.
他们说我还剩四到六个周 They're giving me four to six weeks.
那你之前的工作是 And what did you do before...
快死之前吗 在扬克斯市议会工作 Dying? Worked for the city council in Yonkers.
我接了各种愤怒电话 I'd field all the angry calls.
人行道上裂缝了是吗 Your sidewalk's got a crack?
旧电线垂到你家金盏花上了 Old power lines are drooping into your marigolds?
我就是电话那头那个 I was the soothing voice
-抚慰人心的声音 -麦克斯 - on the other end of the line. - Max!
-我要你见一个很重要的捐赠人 -你被雇佣了 - I need help with a very important donor... - You're hired.
-你却把已经出院的病人 -干什么 - And you flood our halls - For what?
塞得到处都是 with patients we've already discharged?
卡伦 你来得正好 Karen, I'm glad you're here.
见见我的新任行政助理 I'd like you to meet my new executive assistant,
阿黛尔·艾森鲍姆 她才能出众 Adele Eisenbaum. Highly, highly skilled
经验丰富 and tons of experience.
很高兴加入你们 I'm happy to come aboard.
很好 趁奥奇还被我拖着 Great. Now, come back upstairs with me
马上跟我上楼 while I've still got Ozzie on the hook.
我很想去 可是... You know what, I would love to, but I, um...
很不幸 Um, oh, unfortunately,
古德温医生的日程有点紧张 Dr. Goodwin's schedule is a little crammed.
他得趁走廊里死人之前 Uh, he has to get everyone settled
把大家都安顿好 before people start dying in the hallways.
顺便一提 我喜欢你的美甲 I like those nails, by the way.
等古德温医生把这乱摊子理清楚 But as soon as Dr. Goodwin sorts through this mess
他会立刻联系你 you're gonna hear from him.
我喜欢她 希望你留在这 I like her. I hope you stick around.
我只是个临时工 I'm temporary.
这个我们走着瞧吧 We'll see about that.
赶紧给这些病人找个好点的地方吧 Now find a better place for these patients.
正在努力 老板 Yup, working on it, boss.
刷一层新漆怎么样 Maybe with a new coat of paint, hmm?
别逼我还没死就辞职 Don't make me quit before I die.
这里应该可以 Now, this could work.
小心 好吧 等等 这就出去 Watch out, okay, good, okay, one second--okay, we're going.
-不行 -对 不行 - No. - Yeah, no.
我们到了 Here we are.
这层楼有好几年没用了 This floor hasn't been used in, uh, years.
小心点 东西很乱 sorry, watch out for... whatever that is.
我也不知道那间屋里有什么 I don't even know what's in that room.
设备故障或者没用之后 when equipment breaks down or loses its function,
都被堆到这里 it ends up here.
我们都开始管这里叫「墓园」了 We even started calling it "The Graveyard."
我的天哪 Oh, my God.
我知道 完美 I know. It's perfect.
欢迎来到「墓园」 Welcome to "The Graveyard."
回头我们把这名字改了 We're gonna change the name.
这里将成为我们新的临终关怀区 Uh, this will be the home of our new palliative wing.
变成你们自己的地方 It's gonna be a place to call your own.
你们...自己的房间 You know, your own-- your own rooms.
自己的空间 Your own spaces.
四处看看 找个你喜欢的地方 So just check it out and find a, uh, spot
哪里都可以 that feels right for you, wherever you like.
写着你名字的地方 Wherever calls your name, just...
你觉得怎么样 So...what do you think?
我觉得很像一间医院 I think it looks like a hospital.
不算很高的评价了 不过... Not a ringing endorsement, but--
我们在扬克斯市政厅开会时 We didn't pull our punches
从来不会嘴下留情 at the Yonkers City Council meetings.
我只是想找个舒服的地方 All right, well, I'm just looking for a comfortable place
给大家... for people to...
等死吗 Kick the bucket?
是啊 Yeah.
没有人想死 麦克斯 Nobody here wants to die, Max.
当你发现自己在这世上 When you know your time left
时日无多的时候 on this big blue ball is short,
你对事情的看法会不太一样 you look at things a little differently.
其实我能体会 I can relate, actually.
那就看看你周围 Well, then, look around.
我们不是要找一个地方等死 We don't want a place to die.
而是想有个地方好好生活 We want a place to live.
哪有人愿意在医院生活 And who in the hell wants to live in a hospital?
-伊吉 -你好 - Oh, uh, Iggy-- - Hi.
你好 我们能交换病人吗 Hi. Could we swap patients?
不行 我在我的病人身上已经投入太多了 Oh, no way, no. I'm way too invested in my guy.
这位不孝子想要再度联系 He's a black-sheep son trying to reconnect
他心门紧闭的父亲 with his emotionally unavailable father,
完全和我的家庭没有一点相似之处 which in no way whatsoever reminds me of my own family.
-怎么了 你那位呢 -我的病人 - Why, what's yours? - Mine asked me to solve
要我解答宇宙的意义 the meaning of the universe.
懂了吗 Right?
哪有人能答得出来 How exactly is one supposed to do that?
其实吧 Well, you know,
已经证实 赛洛西宾对于 psilocybin has actually shown some real promise
[提取自蘑菇的一种具神经致幻作用的神经毒素]
面临存在危机的人有一定作用 in helping people with existential crisis.
也就是将死之人 AKA dying.
你要我给他喂毒蘑菇吗 You want me to give him hallucinogenic mushrooms?
如果你能拿到「新药尝试」许可的话 Well, if you get "Right to Try" Approval,
这个绝对合法 可不像海洛因 it's perfectly legal. Unlike, say, heroin.
-闭嘴 -好嘞 - Shut up. - Okay.
还有谢谢 我会考虑的 And thank you, I will consider it.
-不客气 -伊吉 - You're welcome. - Iggy,
你得跟我交换病人 you must swap patients with me.
这里是什么情况 不 不交换 What is happening around here? No. No tradesies.
这个黛布拉·基廷简直不可理喻 This Debra Keating is an unreasonable woman.
我说我想给她一个美好的守灵仪式 I told her I wanted to give her a beautiful wake.
你知道她说什么吗 You know what she said?
-不 -没错 「不」 - No. - That's right. "No."
我之前就想给我妻子举行生前守灵 You know, I wanted to give a living wake for my wife.
但黛布拉拒绝了 我不知道为什么 But Debra is refusing, and I don't know why.
你问她了吗 Well, did you ask her?
-没有 -一个与你身高相仿的智者 - No. - You know, a wise man about your height
曾经告诉我 倾听是一个非常有效的工具 once told me that listening is a very effective tool
它可以测定人们为什么会这么想 in determining why people think the things that they think.
是的 是的 是的 我知道 等一下 Yes, yes, yes, I know. One second.
这个是哪里来的 Where did you get this from?
那里有一桌名副其实的盛宴 Oh, there's a veritable feast right there.
但是别担心 没有你做的好吃 But don't worry, it's not as good as yours.
全国各地的临终研究方案 Psilocybin is being used in in End-of-Life study protocols
-都在使用裸盖菇素 -但我不想 - all over the country. - And I do not feel comfortable
在我的部门使用它 clearing it for use in my department.
「尝试权」法允许在治疗晚期病人时 "Right to Try" Laws allow wide latitude
有较大的用药自由 如果你见一见齐克 in treating terminal patients. If you just met Zeke--
我不会让你开「毒蘑菇」药方 I'm not adding any more fuel to this whole "Heroin Den Helen" thing
给你那「海伦和海洛因的关系」添砖加瓦 by letting you prescribe "Shrooms."
剂量非常小 而且我会小心监控 It's micro-dosing. And it will be carefully monitored.
不可能 It's not gonna happen.
但你可以越过我去找麦克斯 But feel free to go over my head and run to Max,
因为常规操作就是这样 对吗 because that is how this works, right?
原谅我 黛布拉 Forgive me, Debra.
你来决定接下来的几天怎么过 You are in charge of how the next few days should go,
我过来只是倾听 and I am here just to listen.
谢谢你 Thank you.
好的 Okay,
我在听 但什么也没听到 I'm listening, but I'm not hearing anything.
有什么好说的 What is there to say?
有很多 Oh--so much.
不仅限于你 N-not just for you,
也可以说说你的朋友和亲戚 but for your friends and relatives.
对不起 我过来只是倾听 对不起 Oh, sorry, I'm just here to listen. Sorry.
情况变糟之后我没见过任何人 I haven't seen anyone since things got bad.
我只想一个人待着 I just want to be alone.
我甚至送走了贝弗利 I even gave away Beverly.
贝弗利 Beverly?
我的可卡犬 My cocker spaniel.
你为什么想一个人做这事 So why would you wish to do this alone?
我不想和任何人分享这事 I don't want to share this with anyone.
我一辈子都把情感藏在心里 I've kept my feelings to myself my whole life.
我的死亡为什么要有所不同呢 Why should my death be any different?
看到我这样 大家只会很难过 It would just upset people if they saw me like this.
所以你不想要生前守灵 So you don't want to have a living wake
是因为你想保护别人 because you're trying to protect other people?
是的 Yes.
现在我明白了 黛布拉 I understand now, Debra.
我知道你需要什么 I know exactly what you need.
-生前守灵 -什么 - A living wake. - What?
-不 我不想要 -我在倾听你说的话 - No, I don't want it. - I'm listening to your words,
我听得很清楚 and I'm hearing you loud and clear.
不 我说了我不想要 No, I said I don't want...
黛布拉 你会喜欢的 Debra, you're going to love it.
...生前守灵 ...a living wake.
谢谢你 Thank you.
彼得 Peter.
彼得 你爸爸来看你了 Peter, your dad is here to see you.
我 我恨你 I--I hate you.
我一直都很恨你 I've always hated you.
-到了 -怎么了 - There we go. - Oh, what happened?
有人滑了一下 在产房摔倒了 Someone had a little slip and fall up on L and D.
我有点兴奋 I got a little excited.
以为我可以...站在蕾吉娜的床边 Thought I could... stand at Regina's bedside.
让我看看 Let me take a look.
看来真是摔得不轻 Ooh, yeah, that's a real humdinger.
最好让我给你缝几针 Probably best if I put in a couple stitches.
-我没事 -只是安全起见 - I'm fine. - Well, just to be safe.
我想回楼上去 I wanna get back upstairs.
我不想错过我的外孙 I don't wanna miss my grandbaby.
一分钟就够了 It's only gonna take a minute.
布鲁姆医生 我正处在人生中 Dr. Bloom, I'm at a time in my life where
每一分钟都很重要的时刻 every minute...matters.
好吧 至少让我缠上绷带 Okay, look, at least let me thrown on some bandages
你再走 好吗 for the road, okay?
我做梦都想 I always dreamt
做外婆 of being a grandmother...
溺爱我的外孙 Spoiling my grandkids with love.
我真的以为...我还有更多的时间 I really thought... I would have more time.
玛丽安 Marianne?
-玛丽安 -好了 好了 - M-Marianne? - W-Whoa, okay, okay.
把她的腿放上来 Get her legs.
好了 Okay.
-没有脉搏 -心脏骤停 - No pulse. - Cardiac arrest.
去拿除颤器 Grab the defibrillator.
你干什么呢 What are you doing?
她签了不抢救预嘱 She's DNR.
-你不是认真的吧 -不 不行 - You--you cannot be serious. - Oh, no, no, no.
我们得放手让她走 We gotta let her go.
两分钟内我就能让她重新呼吸 In two seconds I can have her breathing again.
劳拉 她的意愿很明确 Lauren, she made her wishes clear.
她的意愿是见她的孙子 She wishes to see her grandchild!
那只是一分钟前的对话 But that was a minute ago in a conversation.
她做的具有法律效力的决定是 The legal and binding choice she made
不电击 不进行医疗干预 was no shocks, no medical intervention.
看 就写在她的病历里 Look, it's here in her file.
好吧 但是如果她现在醒着 Okay, but if she was awake right now,
她会推翻不抢救预嘱的 你知道的 she would reverse that DNR, and you know it.
-但她现在没醒 -那是因为我们在争执 - But she's not awake. - That's because we're arguing
而不是试着抢救她 instead of trying to resuscitate her!
劳拉 如果你抢救玛丽安 Lauren, if you touch Marianne,
你就是在侵犯她的权利 you're violating her rights.
你得让她安心地走 You need to let her go in peace.
好了 走吧 她签了不抢救预嘱 Here, no, she's DNR.
劳拉 你干什么 Lauren! What are you doing?
谁把急救车推过来 快 Someone get the crash cart in here now!
住手 Stop!
我需要肾上腺素 加油 玛丽安 I need epi. Come on, Marianne.
旅途愉快 医生 Enjoy the trip, Doc.
如果夏普医生觉得这样有帮助的话 If Dr. Sharpe thinks this will help,
她可能还不如我 she's worse off than I am.
这件事你知我知 This stays between us.
-谢谢 -谢我什么 - And thank you. - For what?
我根本不在这里啊 I wasn't even here.
你得让我在火人节前回来 Oh, you gotta get me back before Burning Man.
大家好 打扰你们了 Uh, hey, everyone. Sorry to interrupt.
最近我才得知这里 Um, it was recently brought to my attention
感觉像个医院 that this feels like a hospital.
所以 我想让你们见见我们新的心理医生和社工 So I'd like you to meet our new therapists and social workers,
他们都经过了全面的保守疗法培训 all of whom are fully trained in palliative care.
我还雇了一些针灸医生 I've also hired some acupuncturists
一位瑜伽教练 一位按摩师 and a yoga instructor, massage therapist,
最后 我想让你们见见 and last but not least, I would like you to meet
小饰和西西 Trinket and Cici! Aww.
你好呀 Hey, hi there!
他们会在这里 Uh, these guys are gonna hang out with you
陪你们玩 闲话少说 and have some fun, so without further ado,
大家欢迎这些全职员工 I'd like you to welcome the new full-time staff
来到「墓园」 of "The Graveyard."
我们真得把这名字换了 And we've really gotta change that name.
我真惊喜 I am impressed.
还不错吧 Not bad, right?
不过就像我们在扬克斯市议会说的 But like we used to say at the Yonkers City Council,
我们怎么付得起这些 how the hell are we paying for this?
我在想办法 I'm working on it.
我给你准备的午餐怎么样 So how did you like the lunch I prepared for you?
很好 我很喜欢 谢谢 It was so good. I loved it, thank you.
你最喜欢什么 And what was your favorite part?
-羊肉咖喱角吗 -没错 绝对的 - Mutton samosa? - Yup, yes, definitely.
我给你的是蔬菜咖喱角 They were vegetable samosas.
你怎么能把我特意为你做的食物 How could you give away the food
给别人呢 that I just made for you?
这太过了 It's too much.
好吧 下次我午餐做少一点 Okay, I will pack a smaller lunch.
不 我不是这个意思 No, that's not what I meant.
我知道是我让你帮的忙 I mean, I know I asked for help,
但是你让我透不过气了 but you're smothering me.
我只是想帮你 I was just trying to help you.
我知道 我很抱歉 I know, and I'm sorry,
但我不需要这样的帮助 but I don't need to be helped like that.
你让我压力很大 You're stressing me out.
家人就应该这样 This is what family does.
谢谢 谢谢 Thank you. Thank you.
我只是 如果我们要继续的话 I just--if this is gonna work,
我们之间得有些界限 I just need us to have some boundaries.
界限 Boundaries?
什么样的界限 What kind of boundaries?
首先 Just for starters,
你不能每顿饭都让我吃五道菜 you can't feed me five courses at every meal.
我知道你可能就是这样 I know that might be how you do things,
但我不想这样 but it's not how I want to do them.
我想吃我自己愿意吃的 I wanna eat what I wanna eat.
好吧 Okay.
好吧 Well...
如果你这么觉得的话 If this is what you feel.
回家见 I'll see you at home.
别等我了 Don't wait up.
欢迎光临班得威 Welcome to Pain De Vie.
你还好吗 How are you holding up?
仍无法将他说的话抛之脑后 Still can't get his words out of my head.
我想我永远也忘不掉了 Don't think I ever will.
是啊 Yeah.
其实 我... You know, I, um...
我也曾对我的父亲说过那样的话 I've said those words to my father.
我一直都恨我的父亲 I've hated my father.
我一直都恨他 I've hated him.
但我也从未停止爱他 But I never stopped loving him.
从来没有 Ever.
而且我很在乎他如何看待我 And I care what he thinks about me.
我真的很在乎 I really do.
就像彼得也很在乎你如何看待他 Just like how Peter cared what you thought about him.
好吧 我很感激你这样宽慰我 Okay, I appreciate what you're trying to do here,
但我从未给予他支持陪伴 but I was never there for him.
他要求见你 He asked for you.
他临死前的愿望是见到你 That was his dying wish was to see you.
没错 这很不堪 And yes, it was ugly,
很难接受 and it was rough.
但是 我向你保证 这绝不仅仅是恨 But...I promise you, it was not just hate.
如今都不重要了 都结束了 Well, doesn't matter now. It's over.
不 不 不是这样 No, no, no.
对彼得来说 没错 都结束了 But for Peter, it is, yes.
但对你来说并非如此 But not for you.
你必须完成和他的沟通 You get to finish the conversation.
我觉得这没什么效果 I don't think this is working.
我曾听人将死亡 I've heard death
描述成墨汁进入水的形态 described as the introduction of ink into water.
那不是消失 So it's not a vanishing,
而是扩展 it's an expansion.
诗意的描述并不能解决一个具体的问题 A poetic treatment won't solve a concrete problem.
作为一个科学工作者 我能理解 真的 I relate as a scientist, I do.
但对我来说 But to me,
数字一点都不具体 numbers aren't concrete at all.
死亡也不 And neither is death.
请阐明你的观点 医生 Make your case, doctor.
最大的数字是什么 What's the highest number?
或者圆周率的最后一位是什么数字 Or the last digit in pi?
一场暴风雪里有多少片雪花 How many snowflakes are in a blizzard?
当我们考虑生命的终结 When it comes to the end of life,
也许我们应该抛开对一切的量化 maybe we need to leave quantifiable behind
改而依赖于经验 and rely instead on experience.
毕竟 没有人能在冬日的暴风雪中 After all, no one can count all the snowflakes
数清楚雪花的数量 in a winter storm.
德彪西 《月光》
一无所有 Nothing...
却是能轻易数清楚的 is actually very easy to count.
她情况稳定了 心跳和心律都正常 She's stable. Heart rate and rhythm normal.
血压稳定 神志清醒 Blood pressure steady. Mentally intact.
你是 你是在惩罚我吗 Are you... Are you punishing me?
因为我救了她的命 For saving her life?
不能为达到一个目的而不择手段 The ends don't justify the means.
玛丽安将能在死去之前见到她的孙子 Marianne is gonna get to see her grandchild before she dies.
当你开始为她做心肺复苏的时候 Once you started to resuscitate her,
你打算在何时停手 在按断了三根肋骨之后吗 when were you going to stop? At three broken ribs?
还是在插了胸管之后 At a chest tube?
如果你将她救过来后 What if you had revived Marianne
发现她已经脑死亡了怎么办 only to learn that she was brain dead?
那些都没法发生 Yeah, well, none of that happened.
没错 但我们的工作是让她有尊严的死去 Yeah, but our job was to give her a good death.
她本可以 而你扰乱了她的安宁 She had it and you just took it away.
我做了麦克斯会想要做的 I did what Max would have wanted.
你要把这怪到麦克斯头上吗 Oh, you're gonna pin it on Max?
不仅仅是麦克斯 Not just Max. You know,
夏普 伊吉 卡普尔 Sharpe, Iggy, Kapoor--
他们每一个人都会做同样的事 all of them would've done the exact same thing.
-那可不好说 -你好好想想 弗洛伊德 - Oh, you don't know that. - Take a look around, Floyd.
这里的每一个人都在变通规则 Everyone here bends the rules.
除了你 Everyone except you.
所以 如果你想找个人来指责 So you wanna find someone to shame,
说那个人格格不入 someone who doesn't fit in here,
那你找错人了 you're looking at the wrong person.
感谢你们能来参加黛布拉的生前守灵 Uh, thank you all for coming to Debra's living wake.
如果你们有想要对她说的话 If you have things you wish to say to her,
希望让她知晓的感受 feelings you wish her to know,
现在就说吧 now is the time.
何...何不先从你开始 黛布拉 Why... Why don't you start us off, Debra?
告诉大家你的感受 Um, tell everyone what you're feeling.
我做不到 I can't do this.
你能做到 敞开心扉就好 Yes, you can. Just open up.
女士们 先生们 黛布拉·基廷 Ladies and gentlemen, Debra Keating.
贝弗利 Beverly?
快过来 小丫头 Come here, girl.
快过来 Come here. All right.
你们大部分人都知道我的狗贝弗利 Most of you know my Beverly.
但你们所不知道的是 What you don't know
但我的健康状况急转直下 is that when my health plummeted,
她特别担心我 she was so worried about me
连食物都不吃了 she wouldn't even touch her food.
她变得难过 没精打采的 She became so sad and lethargic.
她真的是跟我一起经历着病痛 So she really experienced the illness with me.
所以即使我心都要碎了 So even though it broke my heart,
我还是把她给了我姐姐 安娜 I gave her to my sister, Anna.
从我出生起 你就是我的主心骨 My rock since the day I was born.
弗兰克 最棒的姐夫 And Frank, the best brother-in-law.
我爱你和你的家人 I love you and your whole family.
泰德在吗 Is Ted here?
你在那儿 谢谢你能来 There you are. Thank you for being here.
还有杰里米 And, uh, Jeremy.
我从来没想过我会大声说出来 I--I never thought I'd say this out loud...
-黛布拉 -但我从那晚 - Debra-- - But I--I have loved you
在渡船上遇见就一直爱着你 ever since that night at the ferry.
-我不知道要怎么说 -停 别说了 - I didn't know how to say it. - Stop, stop speaking.
请别说了 追悼会结束 Stop speaking, please. This wake is over.
拜托 谢谢 再见 Please, thank you, and good-bye.
拜托 谢谢 再见 Please, thank you, bye-bye. Bye.
-你在做什么 -你不能开追悼会 - What are you doing? - You--you can't have a wake.
你不是要死了 所以 You're not dying, so...
告诉我你留了收据 Tell me you kept the receipts.
在你说其他话之前 Okay, before you say anything else,
你要知道 这看上去很贵 uh, you should know that, uh, it looks expensive,
是因为真的很贵 但这是正确的事 and that's because it is. But it's the right thing to do,
而且钱都会付的 and it's all paid for.
请你告诉我这怎么可能 And how, pray tell, is that even possible?
因为你 Because of you.
是你的努力找到的新捐赠人奥奇·科布 All your hard work with the new donor, Ozzie Cobb.
五百万美元的捐赠 厉害 $5 million donation, wow.
这只需要一百万美元 And all I need for this is $1 million.
卡伦·布兰特利 你是个天才 You, Karen Brantley, are a genius.
奥奇·科布一分钱都没有捐给医院 Ozzie Cobb hasn't given a dime to this hospital.
-什么情况 -他是个自私的小气鬼 - What's that now? - He's a selfish tight-ass
每年都承诺捐几百万 但从不捐一分钱 who pledges millions every year and never donates a damn thing.
我本来想让他上钩 I was hoping to get him on the hook.
但他又溜了 But he wriggled out again.
如果你当时能到场 And if you just had shown up,
你也许还可以把他拉回来 但你没来 you might've been able to reel him back in, but you didn't.
现在太迟了 And now it's too late.
-我要是早知道 -得了吧 麦克斯 - Okay. If I'd known that-- - Save it, Max.
因为你刚花掉了我们没有的一百万美元 Because you just spent $1 million we don't have.
今天之内把所有人弄出去 Get everyone out of here today.
我不会死了 I'm not going to die?
是的 你和贝弗利都患上了 Nope. You and Beverly both have
一种叫钩端螺旋体病的细菌感染 a bacterial disease called Leptospirosis.
人和犬类都会有相同的症状 It presents the same in humans and canines.
你一定是某次遛狗时感染上的 Uh, you must have gotten it on one of your walks.
-但怎么没有人 -这些症状 - But how did no one-- - The symptoms were masked
都被你的硬皮病掩盖了 而且掩盖得很好 by your Scleroderma. It was well hidden.
那你是怎么知道的 Then how did you know?
我认真听你说话了 I listened to you.
用抗生素 With antibiotics,
你们俩都会痊愈 both of you will make a full recovery.
你一旦开始有这些情绪 Once you start with the emotions,
就很难停下来了 对吧 it's hard to stop, isn't it?
我的天呐 Oh, my God.
我跟所有人说了我的感受 I told all those people how I feel.
包括杰里米 Even Jeremy.
我现在知道生前守灵 I realize now that a living wake
也许不是你所需要的 may not have been what you needed.
我真的很抱歉强迫你办守灵 I'm really sorry for forcing you to have one.
你不许感到抱歉 Don't you dare be sorry.
这场守灵 My wake...
是我人生中最美好的一天 It was the best day of my life.
彼得 Peter.
你是我的宝贝儿子 You are my baby boy.
我希望 I wish...
我希望能早点让你知道我有多... I wish I could've shown you how much...
我有多爱你 how much I love you.
但现在爸爸在这里 But Papa's here now.
我在这儿 I'm here.
我走了 And I'm not leaving.
奥奇 很高兴我找到你了 Ozzie, I am so glad I caught you.
你像条滑溜溜的鱼一样难抓 You are one slippery fish.
我跟布兰特利主席说了 Well, I told chairwoman Bradley
我已经看到我需要看的所有东西了 I've see everything I needed to see.
事实上 还不是所有 Yeah, actually, not everything.
-交给你了 麦克斯 -好 谢谢 - The floor is yours, Max. - Okay, great, thank you.
谢谢你们的到来 And, uh, thank you all for coming.
今晚 我有幸向大家介绍 Tonight, I have the great pleasure of introducing
我们的新临终关怀区 our new palliative care unit,
病人会在这里度过生命中最后的日子 where our patients will spend their final days
并且以他们想要的方式被照顾 being cared for on their own terms.
这对我们医院来说 是梦想成真 It's a dream come true for this hospital.
但这差点就没法实现了 But it almost didn't happen.
多亏了一笔非常大方的 Thanks to a very, very charitable
最后时刻的捐款 我们现在可以宣布 last-minute donation, we can now call
这个独一无二的区 this one-of-a-kind unit
将永远留在新阿姆斯特丹医院 a permanent feature here in New Amsterdam.
现在起 每当你想起慈善 So now, when you think of philanthropy,
你都将永远记得 you will forever think of
「奥奇·科布临终关怀区」 the "Ozzie Cobb Palliative Care Wing."
看看这个 不错吧 Take a look at that! Pretty good, right?
谢谢你 Oh...thank you!
没错 Yes!
就是这位先生 Look at this guy!
我 我 什么也 I--I did n-- I--
您说得一点都没错 I know, I couldn't agree more.
我知道您唯一想说的 I think what you're trying to say
今天 在所有聚集于此的人面前 in front of everyone gathered here today,
在患者面前 看啊 还有媒体 出版社 our patients-- oh, look at that--the news media, the print,
广播 流媒体 各位好 broadcast and streaming outlets--hi there--
就是一句谢谢大家 is thank you.
现在让我们拍几张这位先生 Now let's get a few photos of him
签发支票的照片吧 怎么样 signing the check, shall we?
让我们共同捕捉住这个 Let's really capture this moment
每个人都应该见证的博爱时刻 of boundless philanthropy for everyone to see, huh?
你中圈套了 You're on the hook now.
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太好了 Hey, all right!
-请您微笑 -太棒了 - Smile, please. - Yes!
他真的太棒了 不是吗 He's the best, isn't he?
BGM: Give Me Something by Seafret
♪ What you say ♪
♪ Tells me nothing ♪
♪ What's the truth? ♪
♪ Give me something ♪
♪ Take me down a road I believe in ♪
♪ Lost the way ♪
♪ Lost all reason ♪
你好杜瓦蒂医生 答案是我乐意 Hello, Dr. Duarte. The answer is yes.
我很乐意来芳草地医院为您工作 I'd love to come work for you at Yerba Buena Hospital.
♪ Trying to save it ♪
♪ Before I fall out ♪
♪ Show me somehow I can make it ♪
♪ All that we gave ♪
♪ Was it wasted ♪
埃拉 我到家了
♪ Falling down broke holding one hope ♪
♪ That you'll make it ♪
♪ Give me something ♪
♪ To hold on to ♪
♪ I've got nothing ♪
今天太不容易了 A hell of a day.
♪ Since I lost you ♪
是啊 Yeah.
跟我说说 Burden me.
我都不知道乔治娅死前会想要什么 I don't know what Georgia would've wanted.
我们总是在忙着拯救婚姻 And we were so busy trying to save our marriage
对付癌症 and deal with my cancer...
我从来没问过她这些 I didn't even ask her.
那些花 The flowers.
我真的觉得我选错了 I just feel like I got the flowers wrong.
它们都很美 They were beautiful.
葬礼中心 他们 The funeral home, they--
他们把那些选择发了给我 我却 they sent options, and, you know, I--
我却让他们替我选 可是 I mean, I just let them choose and then--
-可万一 万一 -麦克斯 - What if--what if-- - Max,
你得原谅自己 you've got to forgive yourself.
BGM: Suite Bergamasque: III. Clair de Lune by Roland Pontinen
我曾经以为 如果我可以 Maybe I thought if I can
帮其他人准备好 就可以 prepare everyone else, then...I could.
然后呢 And?
等你到了那一天 What do you want
你想要怎样的告别 when the time comes?
我 I--
你不是非得 You don't have to...
总得有人知道 Well, someone should know.
我想要卢娜 Luna...
在我身边 唱歌给我听 by my side, singing to me.
即使我已经听不见了 Even if I can't hear it.
我只想知道她还在身边 Just wanna feel that she's there.
我会转告她的 I'll tell her.
那你呢 What about you?
搞个派对一起放空怎么样 How about we just throw a big party and call it a day?
哪种派对 你指的是那种 What kind of party? Are we talking, uh,
皮纳塔 盛满糖果玩具的节庆装饰
有皮纳塔的 还是有小丑的 piñatas or clowns...
我想还是跳舞好了 I was thinking more dancing.
梅伦格舞 多米尼加民族舞蹈
跳舞 好 那你要探戈还是梅伦格舞 Dancing? Okay, so, like tango or merengue?
你得说具体点 我才能好好安排 See, you gotta be specific so I get it right.
你要来负责吗 Oh, so you're in charge?
总有人要负责 Someone should be.