真不敢相信她们还在睡觉 I can't believe they're still sleeping.
是啊 I know.
我想她们有伴的时候睡得更香 I think they actually sleep better with company.
BGM: Bloom by The Paper Kites
我也是 Me too.
♪ And the sun is coming through ♪
♪ Oh, you fill my lungs with sweetness ♪
♪ And fill my head with you ♪
♪ Shall I write it in a letter? ♪
♪ Shall I try to get it down? ♪
这样可以吗 This okay?
你呢 You?
可以 Yeah.
♪ Of a song I can't get out ♪
♪ Can I get close to you? ♪
等等 我还没有过 Wait, wait-- I haven't done...
-自从... -我也是 - Not since... - Me either.
真的吗 Really?
等等 我该把戒指摘下吗 Wait, wait, wait. Do I take this off?
♪ Where the fields are painted gold ♪
不 你不用 No, you don't have to.
我觉得我没准备好 I don't think I'm ready.
你也不必 You don't have to be.
我也没有 I'm not.
♪ When the evening pulls the sun down ♪
那你还想 Do you still--
想 Yes.
♪ Can I be close to you? ♪
医 院 革 命 第二季 第十六集
你肯定想杀了她 You must want to kill her.
我知道卡斯特罗图谋不轨 I knew Castro was up to something,
但让她病人的肿瘤看上去 but making her patients tumors look worse
比实际情况糟 从而在他们好点后 than they actually are so that when they get better
显得她的试验更有效 it makes her trial look more effective?
她的试验就是个骗局 So her trial's a sham.
我不知道这骗局有多深 I don't know the extent of it.
我只知道她很满意自己数据 I only know that she's falsifying her data.
-你得告诉麦克斯 -不行 - You have to take this to Max. - I can't.
麦克斯有政策 要公开我们的所有错误 Max made it policy to go public with our mistakes.
负起责任 To own them.
如果这事传出去 新阿姆斯特丹医院会失去 If this gets out, New Amsterdam will lose
国立卫生研究院的资助 our NIH funding,
那可是好几百万呢 and that is millions of dollars.
那布兰特利呢 What about Brantley?
她只会掩盖事实 She'd just sweep it under the rug
好避免一堆公关上的麻烦 to avoid a PR nightmare.
那你打算怎么办 Well, then what are you gonna do?
毁了她的试验 Blow up her trial.
我读了垂体静脉取样 I'd read about pituitary veinous sampling.
我之前从没见过实际操作 I've never actually seen it done.
许多经验更少的神经科医生 Many less experienced neurologists
害怕这个手术 因为这需要精准定位 fear this procedure because it requires a precise localization
而且手要稳 当然如果是我 and sturdy hands, which in my case is not...
稍等一下 Give me a moment, please.
埃拉 我觉得你不该摸那个 Ella, I don't think you should touch that.
这家伙是个小姑娘 叫卡莉奥普 Oh, that is a she, and her name is Calliope.
我们可以简称卡莉 We'll call her Callie for short.
我以为在格蒂死后 我再也不会 I didn't think I'd ever be ready for another pet
想养宠物了 after Gertie died.
宠物 Pet?
-跟我们一起住 -对 - To live with us? - Yeah.
弗罗姆医生觉得这会是个好主意 Well, Dr. Frome thought it might be a good idea
让我有只情感支持动物 帮我控制强迫症 if I had an emotional support animal to help manage my OCD.
它真是天底下最可爱的 不是吗 And she's pretty much the cutest, isn't she?
对 它很可爱 很可爱 Yes, she's cute. Very cute.
我该走了 I should be going.
好吧 我们回家见 Oh, okay. Well, we'll see you at home.
-取消静脉取样 -等等 什么 - Cancel the veinous sampling. - Wait--what?
可以吗 阿格尼丝 求你了 Will you do that, Agnes, please?
不行 I can't.
贝吉先生已经做好准备了 Mr. Bagey's is already being prepped!
你要是想 完全可以 Okay, you are more than welcome
找地方坐下 to sit down if you want.
哪里都行 Anywhere you like.
那你知道 So, you are aware
你父母送你来这的原因吧 of why your parents sent you here to see me, right?
你不愿去上学 Uh, it's for refusing to go to school.
还有 你父母说从你两周前回家后 And, uh, your parents say you came back about two weeks ago
就变了个样 a different kid.
不愿出自己房间 容易生气 Won't come out of your room, easily upset.
我不能待在房间吗 I can't be in my room?
如果这意味着你逃学的话 不能 Well, not if it means skipping school, no.
达妮卡 你为什么一直看门 Danica, why do you keep looking at the door?
你现在感觉不安全吗 Do you--do you feel unsafe right now?
你经常有这种感觉吗 Do you feel that way a lot?
学校里发生了什么吗 Did something happen at school?
达妮卡 你为什么害怕去学校 Danica, why are you afraid to go to school?
因为我一直看到梅根 Because I can't stop seeing Megan
躺在地上 头上还有个洞 lying on the floor with a hole in her head.
因为这个 That's why.
我觉得你们严重忽略了事实 I think you guys seriously buried the lede.
达妮卡学校发生了枪击 How could you not tell me
你们怎么能不告诉我呢 Danica was in a school shooting?
-什么校园枪击 -我觉得如果 - What--what school shooting? - I think we'd know
我们女儿学校发生了枪击 我们会知道 if there was a shooting at our daughter's school.
但并没有 There wasn't.
-和你妈的晚饭如何 -很棒 - How was dinner with mom? - Oh, it was great.
二十年后 我终于告诉她 After 20 years, I finally told her
被一个愤怒的酗酒者 what a nightmare it was
养大是一种怎样的噩梦 being raised by such a raging alcoholic.
但相反 她没有道歉或接受责任 But instead of apologizing and accepting responsibility,
她说她不记得了 she said she didn't remember it.
她想糊弄你吗 She tried to gaslight you?
那真是太糟糕了 That's messed up.
我想我要在她的无可救药清单上再加上一笔了 Guess I'll add that to her list of irredeemable qualities.
-劳拉·布鲁姆医生吗 -是我 - Dr. Lauren Bloom? - Yes?
你被起诉了 You've been served.
你为什么告诉你的母亲 Why did you tell your mother that our wedding
我们的婚礼可能不会在旧金山办 might not be in San Francisco
但你明知道我们定好了就在那里办 when you know it definitely will be?
这叫做「慢慢告诉她实情」 It's called "Stepping out the truth."
-才不是 这叫做「撒谎」 -我刚刚听说 - Mmm, it's called "Lying." - I just heard.
我就一个问题 你想要个多大的欢送派对 And my one question is: how big a going away party do you want?
不不不 不 Oh, no, no, no, no.
不必了 谢谢 No thank you.
我希望尽量低调 I'm trying to keep this all low key.
-不可能的 -我想也是 - Not gonna happen. - Of course.
说到哪了 You were saying?
我的姐妹和我很早就意识到 对待妈妈 Well, look, my sisters and I learned early that with Mama,
需要把实情一点一点告诉她 you gotta roll the truth out gradually
这样她才有时间适应 so she has time to acclimate.
雷诺兹医生吗 Dr. Reynolds?
不了 不要送告别贺卡 拜托了 Oh, no going away cards, please.
你被起诉了 You've been served.
你两点钟有个行政会议 You have an administrative meeting at 2:00.
-好的 -然后皮肤科想知道 - Great. - And dermatology wants to know
你能不能跟他们谈谈新的医用检查灯 if you could touch base about new exam lights.
没问题 Sounds like a plan.
你是不是被一个假冒的人替换了 Have you been replaced by a pod person?
没有啊 I don't think so.
你非常厌恶开会 这种会最烦人了 You hate meetings, and these are the worst.
我今天心情大好 Well, I'm just in a very good mood,
无论发生什么都不能改变这一点 and nothing gonna change that.
-医院被告了 -好吧 就开心了那么一会 - Hospital's being sued. - Okay, that didn't last long.
非常重要的案子 可能会引起社区的强烈反应 High profile case--we're talking community backlash,
媒体大做文章 还可能会有巨额赔款 media circus, and a ridiculous amount of money on the table.
医疗联盟和市长办公室都已经打过电话 HCC and the mayor's office have already called
确保我们不会搞砸了 to make sure we don't screw it up.
-是谁 -乔治·惠特尼的家人要告我们 - Who is it? - George Whitney's family's
医疗事故以及过失致死 accusing us of malpractice and wrongful death.
每一个参与过他的治疗的医生 Every doctor involved in his care
都被起诉了 也包括 is being sued, including--
-麦克斯·古德温医生 -是我 - Dr. Max Goodwin? - Yes?
你被起诉了 You've been served.
你为什么紧张 你不是要离职了吗 Okay, why are you stressed? You're out of here, aren't you?
你认真的吗 Really?
一个病人死了 怪罪到我们头上 A patient died, and we're being blamed for it.
我们并没做错任何事情 We didn't do anything wrong.
我们现在能做的就是实话实说 So all we can do now is tell the truth,
就会没事的 and we're gonna be fine.
为庭外采证做准备并不是为了获得真相 Deposition prep isn't about the truth.
而是为了找出我们的说法里的薄弱环节 It's about finding weak spots in our stories.
这样我们就能估计 So we see how strong
双方各有多大胜算 the opposition's case is against us.
-谢了 「乐观」医生 -他说的没错 - Thank you, Dr. Optimism. - He's right.
这一类的案子让许多医院破产 Hospitals go down because of cases like this.
劳拉 可以开始了 Lauren? I'm ready for you.
为了接触到肿瘤 To gain access to the tumor,
我们首先找到内部颈静脉血管 we first locate the internal jugular vein.
血压正常 呼吸自主 BP normative, respiration spontaneous.
没有血液回流 I'm not getting flash-back.
呼吸道内有脓肿 Abscess in the airway.
针头断了 The needle broke.
怎么会断的 针头不会无端就断掉 How did it break? Needles don't just break.
这个就断了 Well, this one just did.
监控显示有心律异位 There's ectopy on the monitor.
断掉的针头可能留在了他的右心室 The needle may be lodged in his right ventricle.
如果我们不取出来 他会发心脏病的 If we don't get it out, he will get a heart attack.
呼叫心胸外科 Page cardiothoracic.
-你把他送去手术室 -你去哪 - You get him to an O.R. - Where are you going?
卡普尔医生 发生什么了 Dr. Kapoor, what's happening?
发生这一切都是因为那只猫 This is all happening because of that cat.
什么 What?
玛丽安娜·莫拉 顺铂方案B
病患姓名及顺铂方案表
都准备好了 Ready to go.
我过几分钟再回来查看 I'll check back in a couple minutes.
梅 早上好 May. Morning.
能不能请你 Uh, would you be able to get
再为外面的椅子多拿几条毯子 a couple of extra blankets for the chairs in there, please?
-外面特别冷 -好的 - It's freezing. - Sure.
谢谢 Thank you.
顺铂方案A
手术后的注意事项
-给你 夏普医生 -非常感谢 - Here you go, Dr. Sharpe. - Thank you so much.
大家都会很感激的 Uh, everyone will appreciate this.
我们在上马克斯老师的历史课 We were in Mr. Marks' history class
就听到一声巨响 when there was this bang.
马克斯老师开始喊叫 让我们都趴下 Mr. Marks started screaming. Telling us to get down.
我向走廊的方向看 I looked out into the hall
看见一个男人拿着枪 and there was this man there with a gun.
他在向走廊对面的教室开枪 He was shooting into the class across from us
一枪又一枪不停 over and over again.
然后我看见梅根从洗手间回来 Then I saw Megan coming back from the bathroom.
我的大脑在说 「快去救她」 And my brain was like, "Go help her!"
但我完全动不了 But I couldn't move.
然后他就朝她开枪了 And then he shot her.
马克斯老师把一张桌子推过去抵住门 Mr. Marks was shoving a table against the door.
大家都在哭 Everyone was crying.
我就站在那里 看着梅根躺在地上 And I was just standing there, staring at Megan on the ground.
然后下课铃响了 Then the bell rang,
那个人停止了射击 and the man stopped shooting,
梅根就站起来了 and Megan got up.
之后他们告诉我们那只是演习 And they told us it was just a drill.
愚蠢的演习 A stupid drill.
梅根是演习的一部分 Megan was part of it?
那个打空包弹的人也是 So was the man firing blanks.
但一切都感觉很真实 But it all felt real.
她的学校没告诉我们会发生 Her school didn't tell us that there would be
这种事情 anything like this.
没人知道 连老师都不知道 No one knew. Not even the teachers.
我知道那不是真的 我... I know it wasn't real. I...
但我一直感到害怕 But I feel scared all the time.
我不能回那里了 I can't go back there.
四周前 一位叫乔治·惠特尼的患者 Four weeks ago, a patient named George Whitney
来到急诊科 你记得这位患者吗 entered the ED. Do you remember this patient?
我当然记得他 他是... Of course I remember him. He was, uh--
劳拉 不要回答我没有问到的信息 Lauren, don't give more information than was asked.
对 Right.
好的 Okay.
你记得乔治·惠特尼吗 Do you remember George Whitney?
记得 Yes.
你能描述一下惠特尼先生 Can you describe Mr. Whitney's condition
被你接管时的病情吗 when he entered your care?
乔治·惠特尼 三十岁男性 George Whitney, 30-year-old man,
在集市晕倒 collapsed at a street fair
伴有视物模糊 呼吸困难 偏瘫 with blurred vision, shortness of breath, and hemiparesis.
现场查体有心动过速 低血压 呼吸急促 Tachy, hypotensive, and tachypneic in the field.
有过敏史吗 惠特尼先生 Any allergies, Mr. Whitney?
-在服用任何药物吗 -没有 - You taking any medications? - No.
好 送他去创伤一室 Okay, let's get him to trauma one,
连接血氧监测 and hook him up to a monitor on O-2.
什么情况 What do we got here?
根据你的回忆 How many patients were admitted that day
当天收治了多少患者 to the best of your recollection?
八位患者 Eight patients,
都表现为同样的症状 all presenting with the same symptoms.
警察说那些人发生了什么 And what did the police say happened to these people?
一个中东集市发生了 Some sort of smoke device went off
某种烟雾装置爆炸 at a Middle Eastern Street Fair.
他们接触的不仅仅是烟雾 They were exposed to more than just smoke.
人们说现场有一股怪味 People complain of a weird smell at the scene.
复视 下行性麻痹 出汗 Double vision, descending paralysis, diaphoresis.
-肉毒毒素 -这是恐怖袭击吗 -Botulism toxin. - This was a terror attack?
凯西 用一百毫升生理盐水 Casey, dilute one vile of anti-toxin
稀释一瓶抗毒素 缓慢静脉滴注 in 100 cc's normal saline and infuse as slow IV drip
密切监测血液动力学指标 with close hemodynamic monitoring.
收到 Copy that.
但那不是患者受到的治疗 But that's not what the patient received.
我是让凯西这么给他们的 Well, that's what I told Casey to give them.
凯西那天没在上班 Casey wasn't working that day.
他当然在 Of course he was.
护士排班表 上面没有凯西 Nurse's schedule. Casey's not on it.
可我以为... But I thought...
我不... I don't...
你愿意修改你的陈述吗 布鲁姆医生 Would you care to revise your statement, Dr. Bloom?
好了 该你们了 All right, you're up.
你好 医生 Hey, doc.
莉亚·克里兹 顺铂方案B
莉亚·克里兹 顺铂方案A 瑞安·巴尔科姆 顺铂方案A 杰弗里·斯特恩 顺铂方案A
杰弗里·斯特恩 顺铂方案B
瑞安·巴尔科姆 顺铂方案A
告诉我是我疯了 是你搅黄了我的试验吗 Tell me I'm crazy. Did you sabotage my trial?
你让我别无选择 You didn't give me a choice.
你到底想干什么 What the hell were you thinking?
把我的患者的药调换了 ‭Switching my patient's meds?‬
每个人都得到了化疗药 所有人都很安全 Everyone got their chemo. Everyone's safe.
-这点最重要 -这点最重要是吗 - That's all that matters. - Oh, that's all that matters?
现在没有对照组了 There's no control group anymore.
所有人都被给了试验药物 Everyone's been dosed with the trial additive.
我想你只能重新开始你的试验了 I guess you'll just have to start your trial over again.
你真的嫉妒到非要毁了它不可吗 Are you really that jealous that you have to kill it?
我知道你对患者基线做了什么 I know what you did with your patients' baselines.
我那么做只是因为预试验数据显示 I only did that because the preliminary data
按照这个方案给药效果不够好 showed the drug was not working well enough on this protocol.
那你应该如实报告 Then you report that.
如果药物无效 就是无效 If the drug doesn't work, it doesn't work.
它会有效的 等我有更多时间 It will work, when I have more time
把试验参数调整好以后 to get the parameters of the trial right,
只要进入三期临床试验我就可以 and I will once it gets to phase three.
你必须现在就终止 You have to shut this down now.
整个临床试验已经违规了 The entire trial has been compromised.
试验是违规了 但药物没有 The trial, yes, but not the drug.
我会带它进入三期试验 I am bringing it to phase three.
那我就把这些告诉麦克斯 Then I am taking this to Max.
如果你愿意这么做 If you were willing to do that,
早就已经做了 you would have done so already.
跟我想的一样 That's what I thought.
这是我们能找到最好的主动枪击演习 These are the best active shooter drills available.
这些演习可能挽救学生的生命 These drills could save our students' lives.
好吧 如果我给你看一个 Okay, if I showed you an MRI
经历过你演习的孩子的核磁共振 from a kid that was in your drill,
或一个经历过真正枪击案孩子的核磁共振 or an MRI from a kid that was in an actual shooting,
你知道你会看到什么吗 do you know what you'd see?
-它们是相似的 -它们完全相同 - They would be similar? - They would be identical.
甚至包括由恐惧 抑郁 Right down to the long-term problems,
愤怒 焦虑引起的长期问题 from the fear, the depression, the anger, the anxiety.
全部创伤后应激障碍 The full PTSD buffet.
创伤的发生不是因为你身处危险之中 Trauma doesn't happen because you're in danger,
而是因为你认为自己身处危险之中 it's because you think you are.
那你想让我怎么做 So what would you have me do?
假装校园枪击案不存在吗 Pretend school shootings don't exist?
-不 -无视法律 - No. - Ignore the law?
-不 -谁会希望枪击案在这里发生啊 - No. - God forbid a real shooting happens here.
如果我的孩子们毫无防备 该死的是我 I'll be damned if my kids aren't prepared.
好吧 听着 我承认你的处境 Okay, look, I recognize that you are in
进退两难 但你有更好的选择 an impossible situation here, but there are alternatives.
有一种电脑训练程序 There are desktop training programs.
它能让孩子们避免经历真实的创伤事件 One where the kids don't have to act out traumatizing events.
因为这个程序会让他们相信 Because all that does is make them believe
他们已经经历过了 就像达妮卡一样 that they've already been through one, like Danica.
达妮卡的事我很遗憾 Well, I'm sorry about Danica,
但我没收到过其他投诉 but I haven't heard any other complaints.
有多少学生在学校咨询师 Well, how many students have checked in
那里咨询过 with the school's counselors?
由于预算缩减 我们学校没有咨询师 With all the budget cuts, we don't have any.
现在有了 Well, you do now.
我今天不接待病人 I'm not seeing patients today.
我只是 Um, I just--
药物滥用能在多大程度上影响记忆 okay, how much can substance abuse affect someone's memory?
这取决于滥用的药物种类和程度 Depends on substance and the degree to which it was abused.
基因也是一个因素 问这个干什么 Genetics can also be a factor. Why are you asking?
我有段时间滥用了阿德拉 I abused Adderall for a while.
现在我经常忘事 Now I'm forgetting things.
什么样的事 What kind of things?
本应让我 Details about a day
记忆犹新的日子中的一些细节 that I should've remembered everything about.
而我的酒鬼母亲说 And my alcoholic mother says
她想不起过去15年的事 所以 she can't remember the last 15 years, so,
我不确定 从我优秀的基因和自身因素来看 I don't know, given my stellar gene pool and my own issues,
也许我 maybe I'm just--
劳拉 就记忆缺失的原因来讲 Lauren, there's a significant difference
长期的药物滥用 between the type of memory loss
和你的情况之间 associated with a lifetime of substance abuse
是有天壤之别的 and your situation.
你确定吗 Are you sure?
我每天都见你 天天和你一起工作 I see you every day. I work with you every day.
我没发现让我担心的事 There is nothing that concerns me.
那就好 Okay.
不过 你妈妈的状况 Your mother's condition, on the other hand,
要严重得多 is much more serious.
而且确实存在问题 她可能永远都想不起来了 And very real. She may never remember.
古德温医生 从你的职责范围来看 Dr. Goodwin, isn't it unusual for you to dedicate
你全天都在急救中心是否不太寻常 your entire day to the ED given the scope of your duties?
是这样 但因为这次病历广为关注 Yes, but because this was such a high profile case,
市长要求我亲自监控受害者的情况 the mayor asked me to monitor the victims personally.
所以你是以医疗主任的身份出现的 So you were there in your capacity as medical director?
没错 That's right.
视觉重影 下行性麻痹 发汗 Double vision, descending paralysis, diaphoresis.
是肉毒毒素 Botulism toxin.
-这是恐怖袭击吗 -布伦斯泰特 - This was a terror attack? - Brunstetter.
用一百毫升生理盐水稀释一瓶抗毒素 Dilute one vial of anti-toxin in 100 cc's normal saline
慢速静脉滴注 and infuse as a slow IV drip
密切监测血液动力学指标 with close hemodynamic monitoring.
收到 Copy that.
实验室技术员请到一号X光室 Technician to X-ray one. Lab technician to X-ray one.
不要稀释了 Forget the dilution.
用一次静脉注射把抗毒素推完 Push anti-toxin in a single IV injection.
我得和布鲁姆医生确认一下 I have to clear that with Dr. Bloom.
不 没那么多时间了 No, there isn't enough time, okay?
如果现在不注射足量抗毒素 Patients could die unless you push the full dose
病人会死亡 of anti-toxin now.
所以你撤回了布鲁姆医生的指令 So you countermanded Dr. Bloom's order?
对 Yes.
由于她的指令没有被执行 Then she wasn't at fault for giving an order
她没有过错 that was never carried out?
我不觉得现在应该问责 我认为 I don't know if we should be assigning blame, I think--
所有的八位患者 Did all eight patients
都在你的治疗方案下好转了吗 古德温医生 respond to your treatment, Dr. Goodwin?
除了一位 All but one.
有脉搏 很微弱 但确实有 Okay, I got it. It's weak, but it's there.
-什么情况 -室颤心脏骤停 - What do you got? - V-fib arrest.
低血压心动过速 A tachy hypotensive.
他心脏骤停时正在做超声 We're in the middle of an echo when he arrested.
左心室运动减退 Global left ventricular hypokinesis.
我们必须现在送他去手术 We gotta to get him to the O.R. Now.
你认为 Would you say the decision
用足量抗毒素治疗的决定是在匆忙中做出的吗 to treat with a full dose of anti-toxin was made in haste?
紧急情况下 During an emergency,
医生要在匆忙中做很多决定 doctors have to make a lot of decisions in haste.
但你不是以医生身份出现的 But you weren't there as a doctor.
基于你的表述 你是以医疗主任的身份出现的 To your own admission, you were there as medical director.
我每天都身兼数职 I have to wear multiple hats every day.
那么你在撤销 Which hat were you wearing
布鲁姆医生的稀释方案时 when you countermanded Dr. Bloom's order
是什么身份 to follow the dilution protocol?
医生的身份 My doctor hat.
可是很显然 布伦斯泰特护士 But obviously, Nurse Brunstetter saw you
-把你当做医疗主任看待 -可能是这样 - as the medical director. - While that may be true,
我不知道是什么影响了他们的决定 I don't know what affected their decision--
这可能意味着布伦斯泰特护士 Which may have meant Nurse Brunstetter
也许感到无力反驳你的指令 may have felt unable to contradict your directive--
我完全不知道 I have no idea
布伦斯泰特护士感到了什么 what Nurse Brunstetter may or may not have felt--
一个或许导致 A directive that may have led
乔治·惠特尼心脏骤停的指令 to George Whitney's cardiac arrest.
在我看来 From where I sit,
你的身兼数职 because you wear multiple hats,
导致了病人的死亡 one of your patients died.
大家好 我是伊吉·弗罗姆医生 Okay, um, hi, everybody. My name is Dr. Iggy Frome.
你们可以叫我伊吉 You can just call me Iggy.
首先 我想感谢科尔文校长 Um, first of all, I'd like to thank Principal Colvin
允许我和你们聊聊 for allowing me to speak to you all today.
可以少上一点课你们一定很激动吧 Bet you're all pretty pumped to be missing some class, huh?
他们少上的是体育课 They're missing gym.
好吧 Yikes. Uh, okay.
我向大家保证我来这里是有充分原因的 So I promise you that I'm here for a good reason, guys.
我想和你们说说 I'm here to talk to you about the shooting drill
几周前发生的枪击演习 that happened a couple weeks ago.
我想和你们谈谈你们的感受 I want to talk to you about how that made you feel.
好吧 好吧 行了 Yeah, okay, all right. Yeah, fair enough.
我明白了 I hear you loud and clear.
谈论我们的感受不是你们最喜欢的主题 Talking about our feelings is not your favorite subject.
我不怪你们 I don't blame you.
不如我们试试不同方式 Why don't we try something a little different.
试试简单点的 你们喜欢简单的吗 Try something easier. You guys like easy?
-对 -很好 我也是 - Yeah. - Yeah, good, me too.
我会说一件事 Um, I'm gonna say something,
如果你们同意 拍两次手 and if you agree, clap your hands twice.
就这样 你们能做到吗 That's it. Can you handle it?
-能 -当然能 - Yes. - Of course you can.
这个活动看起来极度无聊 All right, this assembly seems crazy boring.
所有人都拍了 All of you.
好 第二步 Okay, step two.
我会再说一件事 同样的 如果你们同意 I'm gonna say something, and again, if you agree,
这次是 下来和我一起站在场地中间 uh, this time just come walk down onto the court with me.
好吗 准备好了吗 Okay? Ready?
我有时候很害怕枪 I sometimes feel scared about guns.
我怕 我害怕枪 I do. I'm scared about guns.
真的吗 只有我一个人吗 Really? I'm the only one?
我觉得有点难以置信 但是好吧 I find that a little hard to believe, but okay.
我在枪击演习后 I have had a dream
梦到过这件事 about the shooting drill since it happened.
不一定是噩梦 It doesn't need to be a nightmare necessarily.
就是梦 哪种梦都行 Just a dream. Any kind of dream.
好的 Yeah.
很好 谢谢你们 到下面来 Good, thank you. Come on down here.
对 下来 随便站哪里 Yeah, come on down. Take a spot.
和我站在这里就行 好吗 孩子们 Anywhere on the floor with me, okay, guys?
谢谢你们 好的 Thank you. Okay!
还有一个问题 Here's another.
我会避开枪击演习时 I avoid going to where I was
我所在的地方 where the shooting drill happened.
是 我也会的 Yeah, I would too.
我有时在课堂上很难集中注意力 I sometimes have a hard time concentrating in class
因为我在想有人拿着枪冲进来的事 because I'm thinking about someone charging in with a gun.
那样确实很难集中注意力 不是吗 Yeah, that would make it hard to concentrate, wouldn't it?
好 最后一个问题 All right, one last one.
我在枪击演习后感到害怕时 When I have felt scared since the drill,
我以为只有我一个人这么想 I thought that I was the only one.
站在我身边就好 确保你们能听到我讲话 Find somewhere around me. Make sure you can all hear me.
给大家腾出点空位 好 Make room for everybody. Okay.
你们都在这里 看看你们的四周 We're all here. Take a look around.
看看你们的同学 Look at your classmates.
你们的感受并不奇怪 也不是错的 Your feelings are not weird or wrong
因为我们都是这样 都有这种感受 好吗 because we've all got them. You've all got them, okay?
但这些感受 它们不会 But those feelings, they're not--
它们不会轻易消散 they're not gonna just go away.
它们会在你们身体里找个地方 They are going to find somewhere inside of you
藏起来 知道吗 and make a home, all right?
只有说出来才能避免这种情况发生 The only way to avoid that is by talking.
我们必须和别人谈谈 We have to talk to each other.
你们必须和你们的父母沟通 You have to talk to your parents.
跟你们的辅导员聊聊 Talk to your counselors.
我们开始吧 So let's start talking.
你的表情就是我的感受 You look how I feel.
你先说 You first.
我要告诉你一件事 So, I'm gonna tell you something,
我需要你不要表现得像「革命战士麦克斯」 and I need you to not react like "Max the Revolutionary."
那你要哪个「麦克斯」 Which Max do you need?
理智的医疗主任麦克斯 The sane medical director.
今天真的要我选一条路啊 Really want me to pick a lane today.
取证出什么问题了吗 Did something happen at deposition prep?
我不知道 我 I don't know. I...
开始怀疑我是不是做错了 starting to wonder if maybe I'm doing this wrong.
什么做错了 Doing what wrong?
我穿这身衣服是为了 I wear these scrubs so I can
帮助别人 但要是我帮不上忙呢 actually help people, but what if I'm not helping?
如果我只是让事态 What if I'm just making things...
恶化了呢 worse.
或许我应该穿套西装 I mean, maybe I should just wear a suit.
真的像个理智的医疗主任那样坐在办公桌前 You know? And actually sit at my desk like a sane medical director.
也许是时候放弃在所有事情上满足所有人了 Maybe it's time I stopped trying to be all things to all people.
那个为所有人着想的麦克斯 The Max who is all things to all people
才是我们需要的麦克斯 is the Max that we all need.
是我需要的 I need.
我能帮上什么忙 How can I help?
其实 Actually,
我不需要你帮忙 I don't need you to.
我得自己处理这件事 I have to handle this one.
弗洛雷斯医生在不造成损伤的情况下 Dr. Flores was able to remove the needle
成功取出了贝吉先生心脏里的针头 from Mr. Bagey's heart with no damage.
-他应该可以痊愈 -很好 - He should make a full recovery. - Good.
那我今天要一直待在这里 Then I'm staying right here for the rest of the day
避免造成更多伤害 to avoid doing more harm.
你今天出了什么事吗 Is there something going on with you today?
问题不在于我 There is nothing wrong with me.
那就好 Good.
问题在那只猫 The problem is the cat.
你为什么老是提起这只猫 Why do you keep bringing up this cat?
埃拉的猫 Ella's cat.
厄运的预兆 The harbinger of bad luck.
从它出现的那一刻开始 From the time it has showed up,
我的一整天都成了灾难 my entire day has been disastrous.
现在它要跟我一起生活 And now it's going to live with me
毁了我的生活 不行 不行 to destroy my life. No, no, no, no, no.
我得除掉这只猫 I have to get rid of this cat.
你重新订购了那些 Hey, did you reorder any of those--
卡普尔说那可能是真的 Kapoor says it's probably true.
我错过了什么吗 Did I miss part of this conversation?
他说那十五年可能已经 He said those 15 years are probably gone.
从我妈的记忆里消失了 From my mom.
-完全消失吗 -有可能 - Completely? - Could be.
把我气坏了 你知道吗 It just pisses me off, you know?
如果我无法忘记 I mean, if I have to remember
我童年里每一个残忍的细节 every brutal detail about my childhood
那她也应该记得 then she should have to remember it too.
听着 Look.
我知道你很受伤 I know you're hurt,
我知道这些感受困扰了你很多年 I know you've been carrying around these feelings for a lot of years,
但也许是时候不再回忆了 but maybe it's time to stop looking backward.
试试往前看吧 You know, start looking forward.
-麦克斯没和你一起来 -你说得对 - I don't see Max with you. - You were right.
我确实需要麦克斯 I do need Max.
这整间医院都需要麦克斯 This entire hospital needs Max.
半年前他濒死时 我救不了他 And six months ago he was dying, and I couldn't save him.
而你做到了 But you did.
你比任何人都早了解到 精准肿瘤学就是未来 You knew precision oncology was the future long before anyone else.
但如果我能看出你篡改了数据 But if I could figure out that you falsified your data,
国卫院也可以 而这种丑闻... then NIH will too, and that kind of scandal--
你指望我相信 你在担心我 You expect me to believe you're worried about me?
不是你 Not you.
是你的工作 Your work.
麦克斯是因为它才活了下来 It's the only reason that Max is alive.
那你打算怎么做 Then, what are you gonna do?
帮你解决这个麻烦 I'm gonna help you get away with it.
弗洛伊德·雷诺兹医生 Dr. Floyd Reynolds,
能否请你详细描述 can you describe for me in detail
乔治·惠特尼的左心室辅助装置手术期间 what happened in your O.R.27
你的手术室里发生了什么 during George Whitney's LVAD operation?
-随时可以分流 -给我肋骨牵开器 - Bypass is ready when you are. - Ah, rib spreader.
你为什么要装左心室辅助装置 Why were you placing the left ventricular assist device?
惠特尼先生得的是急性冠脉综合征 Mr. Whitney suffered from Acute Coronary Syndrome
由左冠状动脉主干的栓塞引起 from a blockage in his left main coronary artery.
这和古德温医生 Did this have anything to do
使用的抗毒素有关系吗 with Dr. Goodwin's administration of anti-toxin?
没有 与麦克斯无关 No, no. Max had nothing to do with it.
病症早就存在 It was a pre-existing condition,
很有可能是当天的事故使之恶化了 most likely exacerbated by the events of the day.
你认定需要装左心室辅助装置后 Once you decided an LVAD was necessary,
又做了另一个选择 you made a second choice.
你选用正中胸骨切开术 To install it via a full median sternotomy
而不是侵入性更低的导管安装法 rather than the less invasive catheter introduced LVAD.
为什么 Why?
他的情况不稳定 Well, he was unstable
需要立刻稳定血压 and needed immediate help stabilizing his blood pressure.
用胸骨切开术最快 And a sternotomy was the fastest way.
那你为什么没能稳定惠特尼先生的情况 So why weren't you able to stabilize Mr. Whitney?
-股动脉血压低 -血管梗塞了 - TF on one. - He's stroking out.
冠状动脉主干血栓对组织型纤溶酶原激活剂没反应 The embolism in the MCA is not responding to TPA.
那就只能采用备用方案了 栓子切除术 Then we need to go with plan B: embolectomy.
只能进入动脉把血栓吸出来 We need to go in there and suck it out.
正在通过颈内动脉 Advancing through the internal carotid
进入大脑中动脉 and through and into the middle cerebral artery.
就是那里 You're right there.
进行栓子切除 Performing embolectomy.
脑部应该在重新灌注血流 The brain should be re-perfusing now.
除颤器停跳 D-fib arrest!
胸内桨 Intrathoracic paddles.
离手 Clear.
他死在了手术台上 He died on the table.
死因是什么 What was the cause of death?
栓塞性中风 Embolic stroke.
那导致脑部栓塞的原因是什么 And what caused the embolism to his brain?
这种情况时有发生 Sometimes they just happen.
你不认为是你对惠特尼先生实施 You don't think it was because you just performed
侵入性极大的手术造成的 an incredibly invasive procedure on Mr. Whitney?
不 No.
有时就是会出现栓塞 Uh, sometimes embolisms just happen.
这是任何手术的固有风险 You know, they're a risk for any surgery.
你是在知道乔治·惠特尼是白人民族主义者 Did you make the decision to go more invasive, before or after
之前还是之后 决定采用侵入性手术的 you learned George Whitney was a white nationalist.
你是在知道乔治·惠特尼 Did you make the decision to go more invasive
就是在中东街集市释放肉毒中毒素的人 before or after you learned George Whitney was the one
之前还是之后 who released the botulism toxin
决定采用大创口手术的 at the Middle Eastern Street Fair?
下一个问题 Next question.
诺丁汉医生 谢谢你来 Dr. Nottingham, thanks for coming in.
请坐 Please take a seat.
我没有录音 I'm not recording this.
这事不会给任何人造成麻烦 No one's gonna get in trouble,
我只需要你告诉我事实 I just need you to tell me the truth.
事实 The truth?
我需要你把乔治·惠特尼左心室辅助装置手术期间 I need you to tell me exactly what happened in the O.R.
手术室发生的事一五一十地告诉我 during George Whitney's LVAD surgery.
胸部已切开 Chest is open.
-实验室有结果了 -怎么样 - Lab results are back. - And?
白血球数5.2 血细胞比容39 White count 5.2. Hematocrit 39.
肉毒中毒抗毒素276微克 Botulism anti-toxin 276 micrograms--
等等 等等 Wait. Whoa, whoa, whoa.
-276吗 -对 - 276? - Correct.
这是应有剂量的两倍 That's twice the expected level.
他被重复注射了吗 Did he get a double dose?
有可能是他认为会吸入毒素 自己提前注射了 Maybe he predosed himself assuming he'd be exposed.
他为什么要这么做 Why would he do that?
胸骨切开术期间保持麻痹 Maintain paralysis through a sternotomy.
因为他是白人优越论者 Because he's a white supremacist.
该死的种族主义分子 This racist son of a--
他差点杀了七个人 he almost killed seven people
我们现在却要救他的命 and now we have to save his life.
诺丁汉医生 我们不评判手术台上的人 Dr. Nottingham, we do not judge the people on this table,
我们仅做治疗 we just treat them.
所以在你决定实施更具侵入性的 So you realized George Whitney was the perpetrator
左心室辅助装置手术后 after you made the decision
你才意识到乔治·惠特尼是行凶者 to perform the more invasive LVAD procedure?
是的 Yes.
雷诺兹医生在我看到纹身时 Dr. Reynolds had already cracked the chest
已经打开胸腔了 when I saw the tattoo.
谢谢你 诺丁汉医生 Thank you, Dr. Nottingham.
你可以走了 Uh, you can go.
伊维 我没想到 Evie, I'm impressed.
你还约谈了住院医生 You're even interviewing the residents.
所以 医院要负什么责任 So, what's the hospital's liability?
古德温医生 布鲁姆医生 雷诺兹医生 Dr. Goodwin, Dr. Bloom, and Dr. Reynolds--
他们都没有造成乔治·惠特尼的死亡 none of them caused George Whitney's death.
很高兴听到这句话 That's good to hear.
但如果把他们任何一个人放上证人席 But if I put any of them on the stand,
原告律师都能把他们撕成碎片 the plaintiff's attorney will rip them to shreds.
为什么 Why?
他们做出的选择在陪审团看来都很可疑 They all made choices that would appear suspect to a jury.
我知道这会是一笔很大的支出 I know this will be a big pay out,
但为了避免更大的支出 我们需要庭外和解 but to avoid a bigger one, we need to settle.
他气势汹汹地来了 Oh, he's coming in hot.
原谅我 埃拉 Forgive me, Ella,
但你的猫不能进我们家 but your cat cannot enter our home.
-为什么 -你知道我 - Why? - You know me.
我 我受过教育 通情达理 I'm--I'm educated, and reasonable,
在某种程度上也很新潮 and modern, but to a point.
但黑猫 它们走到哪里 噩运跟到哪里 But black cats--wherever they go, bad luck follows.
所以你迷信 So you're superstitious.
是的 而且我羞于承认 Yes, and I'm ashamed to admit it.
因为对你来说 这可能是愚蠢的迷信行为 Because for you it may be a silly superstition,
但对我来说 这很真实 but for me it's real.
这只猫给我带来的压力我无法承受 The stress this cat has caused me is unbearable.
我完全理解 I understand completely.
真的吗 You do?
不理性的恐惧带来的无法承受的压力 Unbearable stress over irrational fears?
这就是我的强迫症每天给我的感觉 That's pretty much how my OCD makes me feel every single day.
有时候我觉得我要失控了 Like, sometimes I think I'm losing it,
我不想让你也有这种感觉 and I would never want you to feel that way too.
这只猫真的对你的强迫症有帮助吗 Does this cat really help your OCD?
是的 所以 Yeah, uh, so, um.
比如 如果我沉迷于什么事 Like, if I'm obsessing over something,
停不下来 and I can't stop.
比如我怀孕了 或我会是一个什么样的妈妈 Like my pregnancy or what kind of mom I'm gonna be.
卡莉就有个小动作 她把肚皮翻出来 Callie does this little thing where she flips belly up
然后把头埋在我的手里 and then she tucks her head under my hand.
它会让我把注意力转移到别的地方 It just gives me something else to focus on.
它...她把我带回了真实世界 It--she brings me back to Earth.
那你必须留下这只猫 Then you must keep this cat.
真的吗 你确定吗 Really? Are you sure?
是的 这是我最后的决定 Yes. That's my final decision.
但你必须做一件事 But there's one thing you must do.
给它改名 Change its name.
卡莉怎么了 What's wrong with Callie?
迦梨是神圣的印度教女神 Kali is a sacred Hindu goddess.
通常跟恶魔血腥的死亡联系在一起 Often associated with the bloody death of demons.
-我没有帮梅根 -我没有帮梅根 - I didn't help Megan. - I didn't help Megan.
我像个婴儿一样吓坏了 I was scared like a baby.
明白了吗 好的 现在你学我 Got it? Okay, now you mirror me.
我想跑去救梅根 I wanted to run to Megan.
但我照老师说的做了 But I was doing what the teacher said.
我已经尽力了 I did the best that I could.
没关系 你可以这么说 It's okay. You can say it.
我已经尽力了 I did the best I could.
是的 你尽力了 Yeah, you did.
看到了吗 You see?
我们讲故事的方式 The story itself is less powerful
比故事本身更有力 不是吗 than the way we tell it, isn't it?
我只是... I'm just...
我真的很抱歉 I'm really sorry.
为什么 For what?
因为我们这些成人让你们这些孩子去面对问题 For all us adults making you kids deal with this problem
而不是我们自己去解决 rather than fixing it ourselves.
-这不公平 -是的 - That's not fair. - Yeah.
我们接收到了你们的想法和祈祷 谢谢 We've received your thoughts and prayers, thanks.
但你知道什么给了我希望吗 But you know what gives me hope?
-什么 -你 - What? - You.
你和你们这一代人 让我很震惊 You and your whole generation. You've blown me away.
你们已经比我们更擅长处理重大事件了 You're already taking on the big issues way better than us.
不要有压力 No pressure.
是的 不要有压力 Yeah, no pressure.
所以现在 你唯一的任务就是继续练习 So for now, your only job is to do the exercises,
我向你保证 恐惧会消退 and I promise you, the fear will subside.
你会找回安全感 You will feel safe again.
我们都会 We all will.
我以为你再也不会联系我了 I didn't think I'd ever hear from you again.
我也这么以为 I didn't think you would either.
那你为什么想在这里见面 So why did you wanna meet here?
我想也许我们可以试着创造一些新的记忆 I thought maybe we could try and make some new memories.
我来递辞呈 I'm here to tender my resignation.
为什么 你为什么要辞职 Why--why would you resign?
我的临床研究违规了 My study's been compromised.
怎么会 How?
完全是我的错 It's entirely my fault,
我作为主席的职责分散了我的注意力 but my duties as chair compromised my focus.
我顾此失彼 Things fell through the cracks.
什么 不 What? No.
我们可以解决这事 好吗 Listen, we can work something out, okay?
你可以重新开始你的试验 在这里 You can start your trial over. Here.
不用了 谢谢 No. Thank you.
我现在需要专注于我的研究 I need to be centered on my research right now,
在这里我做不到 and I cannot do that here.
卡斯特罗要去 Castro needs to go somewhere
她能更谨慎地完成研究的地方 where she can be more vigilant about her process.
这是一项重要的试验 关注度会很高 It's an important trial. People will be watching.
审查将会前所未有的严格 With more scrutiny than ever.
她说得对 She's right.
好吧 那 Okay. Then, um,
那我接受你的辞职 I guess I accept your resignation,
-生效时间 -马上生效 - effective-- - Immediately.
我帮她整理东西 I'll help her get her things.
你先请 After you.
保重 麦克斯 Be well, Max.
为什么你不告诉我关于乔治·惠特尼的真相 Why didn't you just tell me the truth about George Whitney?
我以为 Well, I thought--
你以为你能慢慢讲出真相吗 You thought you could just step out the truth?
是吗 Didn't you?
不论你以为知道了什么 都不全是真的 Whatever you think you know, you don't.
股动脉血压低 TF on one.
他就是那个恐怖分子 He's the terrorist?
你才发现吗 You're just now figuring that out?
他给自己提前用了抗毒素 Pre-dosed himself with the anti-toxin,
以防自己也接触到毒素 in the event that he'd be exposed.
看来没起什么作用 It doesn't look like it worked too well.
是的 该死的种族主义者 Nope. Racist son of a--
想杀七个人 而我们现在还要救他 Tried to kill seven people, now we have to save his life.
对不起 我 Sorry, I--
我不知道为什么 I don't know why, uh--
做我们该做的事就行 而且要做好 Just do what we do, and do it well.
为什么你不跟我说 Why didn't you just tell me that?
你没有做错任何事 You didn't do anything wrong.
但我做错了 But I did.
作为一个榜样 领导者 As a role model, as a leader,
我绝不应该说出那些话 I never should have said those words.
在我的手术室里不行 Not in my O.R.
我还记得 You know, I remember
第一次确定自己想当医生 the first time knowing I wanted to be a doctor.
是因为知道了贝西·史密斯的事 I was learning about Bessie Smith.
-蓝调女王 -对 - Empress of Blues. - Yep.
在全部是白人的医院里 Died after being refused service
被拒绝治疗而死亡 in an all-white hospital.
被埋葬在一个无名坟墓里 Buried in an unmarked grave.
我那时就知道自己想成为一名医生 I knew right then that I wanted to become a doctor,
不带偏见的医生 without prejudice.
我不想你或者任何人 And I hate that you or anyone
看见我做不到 had to see that I couldn't do that.
但是你做到了 But you are that.
你每天都是这样 You live that every day.
这是我嫁给你的众多理由之一 That's one of the many reasons why I'm marrying you.
但我要跟你说一条 雷诺兹医生 But let me tell you one thing, Dr. Reynolds.
如果你再对我慢慢讲真相 If you ever step out the truth with me...
我会让你有好受的 I will seriously mess you up.
刚刚那是怎么回事 Okay, what was that?
你都看到了 Exactly what you saw.
我看到的完全是表演 What I saw was pure theatrics.
麦克斯 我把情况处理好了 Max, I handled the situation.
我看得出来 但究竟是什么情况 I can see that, but what exactly is the situation?
这么说吧 Well, let's just say that
从我上次开除卡斯特罗以来 她并没变 Castro hasn't changed since I fired her the last time.
她是个非常有天赋的医生 She is a very talented doctor,
但她的野心总是影响到她 but she's always gonna let ambition get in her way.
那你为什么让她回来 Then why did you bring her back?
为什么你把自己的半个部门给了她 Why did you give her half your department?
BGM: Sleeping Alone by Lykke Li
晚安 麦克斯 You have a good night, Max.
-我想知道 -我觉得你知道的 - I wanna know. - I think you already do.
那你告诉我 Then just tell me.
♪ Can I get used to ♪
天哪 麦克斯 For God's sake, Max.
♪ Can I forget you? ♪
我是为了你 I did it for you.
♪ Will I get used to ♪
我做的所有事 都是为了你 Everything I have done, I have done for you.
♪ Sleeping alone ♪
♪ I never used to ♪
♪ How did I get to ♪
♪ Ever get used to ♪
♪ Sleeping alone ♪
♪ Tomorrow is a long time ♪
♪ Forgetting so long ♪
♪ I loved you a lifetime ♪
♪ I loved you long ♪
♪ Someday, somehow ♪
♪ Somewhere down the line ♪
♪ Save you for mine ♪
♪ We'll meet again ♪
♪ Someday, somehow ♪
你还好吗 You okay?
♪ Somewhere down the line ♪
不知道啊 I don't know.
♪ Save you for mine ♪
你呢 You?
♪ We'll meet again ♪
♪ Some last some die ♪
不知道 I don't know.
♪ Some love wait till it's time ♪
♪ Save you for mine ♪
至少我们都感觉很糟 Well, at least we're both messed up.
♪ We'll meet again ♪